I Feel Out There

I don't know quite where to start as this is my first post but I recently found this website and I must say I have had some pretty weird stuff happen to me.

I know that I can use energies and send them out, sometimes, stuff comes back at me. It's usually good when I send it out. I have learned I can heal minor aches and pains, such as a back ache or a headache.

I can hear things trying to reach out to me and see them and I know my place in the world, I do not question life or why it's here, or why I am here, but I know that I am here for some greater purpose. It scares me because I am left in the dark about this. I can't exactly see spirits but when they come near me I see them in my mind. Sometimes when huge shifts occur in my surrounding area it's a great six legged serpant like being.

Another was my guide, I can't quite feel her but she is a giant spirit that resides in the snow.

I can look at a person and know what they're feeling and I often feel others around me are immature and are not self aware... I do not know what I am so I was looking for a bit of help.

I can see orbs and flecks clearly, just small flecks or sparkles. They're white and gold usually. I have also been lifted before by things when meditating so I will not try that again. By lifted I mean something like the wind has rushed through me, my first time was outside when I was 11 and the great face of an Indian appeared. I freaked out and ended up in my own body.

I have always been very artistic, I sing, draw, and write and I can connect with Nature and Animals like no one else can. I can tell when people are having problems and I usually try to help or compliment them. I have dreams of the future though it is not normal and sometimes things attach themselves to me and I don't like it...

I've always felt I've known more than others and how the universe works, I've dived deep into the paranormal and I am not eager to find out past spirits. I can't exactly describe it but I feel out there, still me, but reaching out.

I've always been alone in this so I really need some help figuring out what I could possibly be!