I Sometimes Wish My Abilities Would Go Away

Ever since I can remember, I've been able to see things that other people haven't because my grandmother was pure Cherokee and she had spiritual powers that I inherited, and for some reason, people (usually teens) that have committed suicide seem attracted to me. They appear everywhere, but for some reason their favorite place is my room. It's incredibly hard to sleep because everything is being moved and I always have a spirit either in my face, or being uncontent and annoying. There have been countless spirits that I have to endure being followed by, but it's so much worse when they find out I can see them. That's when they start trying to talk to me at school. I try to ignore them, but then they move stuff and get on my nerves, people think I'm insane and I'm already known as the weird kid in the back of the classroom. I can't walk into a hospital without having countless spirits pop up in front of me, and follow me. I have seen people with half their heads missing, and other gruesome scenes. At this point, I have serious heart problems and I can't be startled or I pass out and have severe chest pains, and then I have to go into the hospital for countless hours to get my body stable again, so I'm always hoping and praying that a spirit doesn't randomly come out of nowhere because that would be bad for my health. Sometimes I wish my abilities would go away so I don't have to go through this. At the same time though, I love it. I can help others and I feel like I have a purpose. Does anyone else out there feel the same?