Psychic Experiences The Hard Way

THIS IS PART OF A LETTER THAT I WROTE TO A FRIEND, IT'S TOO LONG TO RE-WRITE SO HERE YOU GO. Although they first came to me without my prompting, I had maybe 15 years of time when I was pretty good at Lucid and psychic dreams, 45 years total but it was in the last 15 years that I made some substantial progress in both of them. Although the last 3 years have produced nothing, I still attempt to initiate a process towards the same goal every night. The process of initiating "psychic" dream or "vision" (I don't know the definitions well, but I think clairvoyant would be more accurate) has three parts. After laying down for the night the first part starts with concentration and visualization and once you've done enough of that it takes over and carries you on from there (I'm not a New Ager or anything like that, if anything I'm a Christian wannabe who thought of how to accomplish this on my own). If the first part was successful, and it always was, it then leads you into the second part which is composed of three stages, 1st stage) you have the sensation of becoming infinitely small (this sensation is very disconcerting and odd). 2nd stage) heavy gravity or a sense of being pulled or drawn downward occurs (this is when your fight or flight mech. Starts to get very, very uptight). 3rd stage) It starts out with an ugly sensation coupled w/intuitive knowledge of proceeding into what the mind comprehends as death and then proceeds to a greater intensity until it gets to an almost unbearable level, continuing this far was possible only on my best days by psyching myself up before hand, the sensation of slipping further and further into perceived certain death is of course a very ugly sensation to say the least. I made peace with God directly before forcing myself to engage and complete the 3rd stage, and that must have helped because I was than successful in obtaining the 3rd part. This is the 3rd part) All ugly sensations cease, all thought ceases, it is a lot like slipping into any regular dream that most of us our age have done thousands upon thousands of times. The visual clarity of the psychic/clairvoyant dream can rival our regular everyday eyesight only minus the stimulus that our other four senses provide to our mind. That's not to say that our other senses help us see better but they do support or contradict how our mind reads what our eyes are seeing. Also the players in the "visions" are not cartoonish, their actions/movements are of real life people, in every way. The time that it takes whole process is about is about 10 sec. The "visions" or dreams which come after the process last maybe 1 or 2 seconds (my best guess) .So as you can see it's not like viewing a whole play at your local theater, it's more like standing in the gathering area and then opening the door for a second or two to view the play, and that's all you get. Usually though, those few seconds are the most important part of the dream/vision call it what you like, and not always but usually it's about someone's demise either through accident, natural causes or planned. I don't have a long list of "visions" but I do have some. And the one that was most on my mind when I was writing to you before involved a little girl (I believe her to be dead so there was no reason for immediate action on my part regarding her, had there been any indication otherwise I can assure you I would have physically moved toward her position, if I knew of it, and nothing including any repercussions to myself in any way, shape or form would have stopped me).