Wasn't I Only Supposed To See Auras?

Since my last post Even weirder things have been happening to me lately. First off, while getting a snack yesterday, I saw a large white mist hovering near my door frame. Second, I keep on seeing white flashes. What's with all the white? I mean I'm guessing it isn't angels anymore cause It definitely doesn't look like the white ones I see in church!

Not to mention, A month or so ago, I have been lucid dreaming at least once every week (I've never even lucid dreamed before, normally it's only 1 premonition dream every 2-5 months). ALSO something even weirder had happened one night when I was done taking a shower. I simply raised my hands, and stretched them for a split second and brought them back to me and towards my sides, Next thing I know, My mother's favorite Piece of pottery came toppling down! I had to cover and say I was clumsy and Accidentally hit it over.

I was practicing channeling my energy through my hands earlier that morning, so I'm guessing that could be the cause because I seem to have way too much of it sometimes. And I could have accidentally done it. (I've accidentally done a lot of stuff before. Like moving doors while looking at them or being angry during class then a computer monitor just turns on as It comes across my vision)

And lastly, I had been practicing absorbing peoples energy during class a few days ago. I did it successfully! But. I also absorbed everyone in the classrooms Winter cold and bits of negative emotion (Not sure how. But you'll see how I know later). And the cold I had absorbed is still remaining with me even though I somehow extracted most of it during bed rest and attempting to do so. Maybe it's Karma.

Also talked to my friend, and she kept on going on and on about how she lost her cold during first period although she felt really tired.

Talked to my other friends who were in this class with me, they were also drained and weren't sniffling anymore or coughing.

Does anyone know how to avoid absorbing the tedious ailments while doing this. And is what I'm doing bad? Cause If it is. I will stop, it felt weird stealing other peoples troubles and energy anyways. (Not to forget. Illness was horrible, I had to be sent home) But regretfully, I must say the energy was kind of fun to play with in my hands and absorb. I feel so guilty for saying that.

And it's official. My mom thinks I'm crazy. She has the beliefs of a firm Psychologist (Since she is currently studying Psychology and that completely denies supernatural beliefs and abilities) anyways, so I'm not sure why I bothered telling her. (Still too frightened of Father to tell him anything. This fear of talking to people is causing my Throat Chakra to suffer even more than it already is.)

Another question is. Why are things getting weirder and weirder?- I mean All I can remember doing is some minor spirit watching, Aura seeing, and slight ESP or Clairvoyance (not sure which is which anymore let alone if there the same thing, but I've been told I have both or- er that- I just don't know). But Majorly Aura's happened most!. Which the Aura flashes haven't been happening much unless I concentrate. My Chakras have been out of it lately and Sending everything to Chaos lately, so I'm trying to keep control and not remain on my inner turmoil for too long and make everything worse.

During the extraction, I could also feel peoples aura's get brighter. But they were more visibly tired. So that shows how their worries just flooded into me causing me to have a major anxiety attack and a morbid feeling after the energy-high wore off.

So where is all of this new stuff coming from!?

Big Question. Does the stuff I'm doing induce bad fortune? If it does. It's gotten really bad. A close family member of mine was about to commit suicide a few days ago (He finally gave himself up after I prayed for a while.). So I've finally decided to post this. Just to make sure something like this doesn't happen again.

Please Help!