This Is How I Woke Up. Sound Familiar?

I am able to see outlines around people, they are not colorful more of like a white haze, that at moments may grow brighter. I also see movement on walls, it used to be creepy but It has gotten better. When I close my eyes a bunch of figures twirl and kind of go like a tornado of colors, and shapes that are actually pretty cool and very trippy. I will now briefly tell you how this all began to happen.

I have always since I was a kid have been very intuitive, I hated school and as a young elementary school kid I was able to treat my class room like a cult, kids would follow me around and do as I said with no apparent reason. Because I was young I didn't know what to do with this ability and of course when you are six and up you take advantage of it. It was pretty creepy actually that they all did what I wanted them to. All this happened to me for a reason, I feel like a lab rat sometimes. I am 31 years old, and this happened to me about 3 months ago. I will tell you more about it:

I had been watching videos of indigo child Matias De Stefano (I recommend them to you), and felt enlightened, I thought that the gaps that where missing between what I have heard from religion and what I thought where logic to me where filled.

I have a friend who showed them to me, she has been studying energy with the Ishaya monks for almost ten years, she also studied a lot about quantum physics, and everything that has to do with energy, the law of attraction etc. She is also studying to do reiki, anyways, after days of chatting about life in general and what our creation really is I had this epiphany that life is all a matter of frequency and depending on the frequency that you are on you view life differently, attract different things and people, and how you relate to them depends on the frequency you and the other individual are on. Also, when something life changing happens, either you move up to a higher frequency or a lower one, until you hit bottom and either you will eventually reach your demise or you will go up to a higher frequency. I don't know if this all makes sense? My friend was a little shocked she had to study all those years to reach the same conclusion I did and kind of taken aback by it, and I did it just by thinking.

That night I had a weird dream. I was filled with a light and it lifted me from the floor and 3 girls I didn't know and had never seen before in my life where there and where amazed by it, I tried to teach them to do the same in my dream but couldn't because I had no idea why I did it myself. During the dream the girls told me that they all exist and they get together to see each other when they go to sleep, and this is the first time they saw me. I told my friend about the dream but she disregard it and told me if it was something special that I wouldn't have a doubt about it cause it feels different, a few days later something told me to go visit her, I never do because she is a bit arrogant about the whole studying energy thing and sees the rest of human kind and this dimension as something stupid. She says "3D sucks" anyway once I was there, we got into it about Christ, and all the ascended masters, about energy, other dimensions, aliens, the change of frequency in the year 2012 etc. As we were talking she said something that after that changed my life forever she said: "In this world you can do anything you want, except for going against God's will" as soon as she said that, she got outlined by a white light not shinny more like a fog and I cried, I was in shock not cried cause I was sad, I was just shocked, I had been an atheist almost my whole life, I had not believe in any sort of higher power for such a long time I was just not believing what I was seeing. After seeing her like that I started seeing little lights and her outline but in rainbowish color in other parts of the room, that night began my blurry or TV static vision I still have (I do miss seeing normal without the static or wavy thing all the time).

The following two weeks have been the hardest two weeks of my life, a weird shape fog followed me everywhere even if I would cover myself completely with a blanket to go to sleep, it would be in there, there was no running away from it. For a period of 3 days the outline was intense around EVERYTHING furniture, my dogs, people, and I felt exhausted all the time but couldn't sleep. Ever since my friends house I felt my hands, feet, asleep and tingling. I was breathing through my mouth more than my nose, and everything seemed like an acid trip. I would later for a few days see eyes all over the place, on the furniture and walls. For those two weeks, my crown and forehead, in the middle of my chest and my back would hurt like crazy, like if someone was messing with me and pouring stuff either in or out of me, my crown and forehead specially. At moments I would see like lights and orbs everywhere and they started to bother me, I felt a little invaded and my privacy taken away from me. It happen so suddenly that I was incredibly scared and I felt like we are never alone and other life is always around us and believe me I didn't like it. Those days I survived by attaching myself to one of my brothers and even sleeping in his room (yet I am 31 as I said earlier).

Right now, I still have always the TV static vision, I sometimes see movement on the walls but not too heavy I just ignore it, If I see or feel something that bothers me I just say: to f*ck off, mind their own business, I am not going to their dimensions to see what they are doing, why invade mine? This might sound stupid but It has actually worked. I see a bunch of pretty twirls and hurricanes and tornados of light when I close my eyes. I do have weird dreams, and I sometimes hear people talking to me (this I find disrespectful as well) when I am waking up from sleep, and mostly I can see the outline around people and objects, no colors yet. I wish I could know what to do with this, how I can benefit other people, or if I am just going to have bad weird vision and get scared on occasion. I wish I knew why me? I believe that nothing is a coincidence and that I went to my so called friend's house that night because I was meant to do so. I don't know if this has something to do with the change of frequency that it is approaching on the year 2012, I have heard that some indigo grownups are turning into crystals since most of the indigos born in the 80's or the first wave is meant to change into crystals and this is the way of showing them there is something more. I would love to hear comments from anyone that understands this and I have been told to chill and enjoy the ride, but sitting in the back sit and letting someone drive the car that is my life and existence is new and makes me feel powerless.

I hope I can read some comments because one thing that this made me feel specially when it first started, was detached from other humans, I became strained from most of my family members, even moved away, I had this feeling like they where a vehicle from me to get here to this world but I don't feel anything if they judge me or don't agree with me anymore, One day while this was happening or right before I woke up with this feeling that I forgave heart and soul anyone who mistreated me in the past, even my family. I felt like I was watching a movie of someone who was put through stuff in the past but even though that someone was me it didn't hurt me directly, like I was seeing everything from above. I don't know if this makes sense to you either? I felt like I needed to let go and start over and seek something more from the human experience than try to meet everyone's expectations but mine, I always knew we came to this life to be happy, I just understood that in a different way now.

Thanks to everyone who took time and read this, it means a lot, I hope

I do get comments and you can share your experience, I would be more than happy to give you my email or FB page, I need to feel connected to others that are going through this change as well.

Good Luck to everyone:)

Jinxxx