I Am Scared

I know I am young but I am scared. I will get fear... Or a part of my head will hurt then something happens. It started when I was nine... I was diagnosed with a seizure disorder. I told my mom a month later that I didn't want her to be in a car accident. Well two weeks later she was. Now she can't work and she got hurt, badly. Then after that I got a step-dad and things calmed down and then it came again. I was 11. My friend was in a bad living situation. I knew that at some point that something was going to happen. Then she was taken away from the state. She was also the only one to see me have a seizure. Then just today, the day I posted this for you to see, I moved to new school. I met this kid and he was related to my best friend. I found that out on my own. I do like him but I know who he likes and I was getting this weird pain in the back of my head were it is deformed. She talked to me today and said " I had 4 seizures." My heart dropped, everything fit. From what I saw in her and what one of the kids announced today it all made sense. I don't know if I am just now starting this but it seems whatever this is it's getting stronger. I am not lying I just don't know what to do. Sorry I could not get into much detail but please comment and help me...:' (I don't understand... Can this be getting stronger? Do I have to live I fear? What do I do? This is hard to explain... I don't know if I can control or it or not it comes and goes...It's not common sense or anything like that but I have no one else to talk to about it... PLEASE HELP ME!