Losing My Mind... Too Many Visions

By maraeve
(1 stories) (5 posts) (the author is a middle age adult)
Date: 2011-05-11
Country: United States
State: California
Category: Visions / Trances / Altered States

For years now I have experienced premonitions, seen spirits, deja vu, and visions. At first when I was a kid I blew it all off as my imagination and that it would just go away. As the years passed however I came to realize that there was much more to what I was feeling and seeing. Especially when I became physically ill at the age of 9 when my mom was being hospitalized while I was at school.

In the past six months my visions have picked up considerably to the point where I have come to realize that I am doing and saying everything that I had seen myself doing before. I have gone through entire days and even weeks realizing I had seen it before in a dream or in a vision while I was awake. I saw myself getting a job and losing it because I had countless numbers of doctors appts because of this so called gift frustrating me and giving me headaches. I have seen events from my college courses and what the outcome is. I am not at all enthusiastic about what I am going through to be honest.

I have gotten choked, scratched, my hair pulled by things I don't see. I have had ghosts in my home that made my life a living nightmare because they influenced my emotions.

I saw myself typing this even. I feel like I am losing my mind, I hear a voice in my head telling me what will happen and who is involved, what will be said next, what will occur. Never exact dates but they are close to when I realize they will happen. It's getting to a point where I feel like I am losing all control of my life. I absolutely fear my own thoughts and dreams, I get panic attacks and want to just huddle into a ball in a room with no windows so I don't go into my vision states.

I have smelled smoke days before wildfires, I have had dreams about natural disasters, I have seen planes and realized one would crash that day, and I have guessed down to the wire what someone would do and say. It is frightening and traumatic and I have never felt like this is a blessing. I don't know how to stop this and I just want to have some calm and normalcy in my life before I go completely insane.

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maraeve (1 stories) (5 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-15)

I need to strengthen my aura and balance my chakras. I have started to verbally give myself positive affirmations. It has been a bit rough but I must give it time I know. For me to be able to process everything I must first find some peace within me.
I am so grateful I found this site. Thanks to everyone who has replied. I am not as strong a person as others and having opened myself like this and being accepted has been an enormous help.

I, like everyone here, have been through so many experiences that many do not understand. Years of going through this unfortunately does not make someone fully understand. If anything it is more confusing and traumatizing.

It seems like only the women in my family go through these things. The men never do and if they do, they just don't talk about it.

ddiana (1 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-14)

hi

Your gift is a blessing. I would be grateful.

It can be used in many ways to help others realize future possibilities and choosing a more spiritual path, so the world becomes more heavenly.

I prayed for you for more strength through this period of understanding and self-discovery and feel free to email me at the address listed on my profile. I am from cali too, and we can meet one day to talk about the wonderful uses of future seeing.

There is a compassionate, kind way to communicate what you see and help others in the process.

There is a world of unlimited joy and expansion, awaiting you - so please be gentle and try to have courage and hang on, as you can. Email me if guided and I would be super happy to share more things which I believe will help you.:) I honor your free will.

Thank you.

InsertSanity (1 stories) (12 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-14)

You can sense a lot of things. I advise praying to god. =) He can help you with this gift. The headaches are happening because you have a strong gift. There's a good chance that demons are tormenting you.

Don't be afraid, and I hope this helps. =)

Onyx13 (22 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-14)

Meditation can be used for several things. The main thing is to unlock our abilities. The second is to control energy flow. If you meditate, see your energy as either wind coming in through an open door and open windows and imagine them closing, or as a flood control system with water being distributed or removed to restore balance. You can also create dampening shields on yourself. Shields don't mean you have to turn off your abilities, it just means you filter out what you want and what you need from what's become excess and overwhelming. Grounding is needed, too. That's done by visualizing/imagining your energy flowing through you into the the ground and seeing only the needed amount in your body.

We can't stop everything we see, but we can certainly take measures to either ease the process or to turn the situation around. Don't let worry of all these visions run your life though. Learning to let go is the healthiest approach.

Is there an imbalance in the world? It depends on the way you see it, but to us, it seems that it's how we perceive it. Something is coming. I don't believe the world stays unbalanced for long. If mass fires and such are what's needed to sort things out, it'll happen whether we like it or not. Our best option is to just do what we can and accept that we aren't gods, that we can only do so much.

maraeve (1 stories) (5 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-14)

What could be causing the sudden increase in visions and premonitions? Is there an imbalance in the world? I am suffering from headaches more often than usual. 😢

maraeve (1 stories) (5 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-14)

I have tried meditation and it has only served to make things worse. It seems I open the door of my mind even more and get overwhelmed. My head ends up hurting so much from everything. It just hurts so much when my mind gets full of images. I have been so anxiety ridden that I have contemplated shielding. I don't know if that is good or not though.
Will be going to look for books and other resources to help in this. The advice I have been given has been amazing, it was what I needed to feel a bit better knowing that what I have been going through in my life can be possibly be understood.

Ocean_Tarot2012 (5 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-13)

I agree with PathR. Meditation can seriously help, its helped me when I was having visions about natural disasters. Meditation can help you control the amount of energy you take in and put out. I hope everything goes well for you.

PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-13)

maraeva, part of what you experienced is due to an excelleration of energy.

I too work in the medical field, and have found it
Difficult due to the energies. To see, know, the year and day unfold can be horrible, I did not know how I was going to make it, but I'm ok and stronger.
I really feel for you!

These are my thoughts.
You do have some chakras that are affected: Solar plexus,Sacral, 3rd eye, and root chakra.
Your also suffering from a weak aura.
(I can tell you) how to balance and close and explain but this would be quite lengthy.

At 9 you experienced the illness due to what some call separation anxiety. As families we exchange and share energy. So you intuitively would sense and know things occuring to a family member.

There are some practices you can put into place immediately: Vit B, Water, Whole foods, foods for the liver. Get a healer to whom works on clearing and balancing and balancing the chakras.

Much of what you've described is seeing past the veil, a conection with the Askaic records, a great intution, a third eye seight.

If you wish to get ahold of me click on User name send email.

maraeve (1 stories) (5 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-12)

I'm thinking about getting a book on chakras. I need to find anything to help me. It has been beyond anything I have ever gone through. It has never happened so frequently as it is now. I came across the site and felt the need to tell you all what I was going through because no seems to understand me at all.
I have tried to meditate but it only seems to make things worse for me. I have tried so hard to do so, it's been such a crazy ride and it's one I need to get off of quickly. I am so thankful that I got responses, I appreciate the help! ❤

JVALLE24 (guest)

14 years ago (2011-05-12)

I completely understand your frustration. Who ever is making you go through this episodes really want you to listen and learn. There is a reason why this is happening to you its no coincidence you know! I know it is very difficult to control your gift but please try. Everything happens for a reason even if we can't understand why. The premonitions you have about you getting a job and loosing a job can be re-written and what I mean by that is that you can change it. Maybe that's why your having premonitions about the future maybe its for you to change what is! Don't be frustrated and I wish you the best...
Blessings, lights and love to you!

aiafaith1 (guest)

14 years ago (2011-05-12)

This is interesting. Have you ever tried just to sit down and calm your body? It helps. I've had spirits in my home too, and it drives me nuts to think that there were people in my home that I don't even know. I feel your pain. Try to meditate. I hope I helped. AnneV has very good advice by the way.

AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod

14 years ago (2011-05-12)

These are symptoms of a too open chakra (probably the heart). I'd do some research on-line and read up on how to balance them. It's one thing to be psychic, but it's another to allow it to ruin your life.

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