Strong Psychic Connections

Honestly I can't believe I am writing this or that I'm writing this on a Psychic website. Most of the stories I have read typically involve younger people who have had their special sight develop slowly over time. My story is quite different.

I am 44 years old. I have been quite emotionally deficient my whole life. I really thought I was defective because I cannot remember ever feeling love for someone, or feeling loved by someone. Well this has changed, and quite abruptly.

I have Never really put much stock in the stories I have read about psychic experiences or empathic connections because it isn't really quantifiable. The story usually can't be verified because it's just a few people involved, and it's a sense or feeling shared between them.

So here is the story;

I recently (within the last 6 months) have formed a very strong relationship with a young girl (19) who was dating my Son for a time. Now it's not that kind of a relationship. I see her as my daughter today, but it took some time for that to develop, and she calls me Dad.

the thing is, since she has been in my life, I feel love. I feel depression, which was something I also couldn't feel before. The emotion has become much stronger as time has passed. I want to dwell on this just a bit so you can get the sense of what I'm saying. This girl came into my life and ripped me wide open. I now feel love so intensely that it is overwhelming. Often I don't know how to process it because I have never felt it before. BTW, my wife knows about the relationship and has taken this girl into our lives. Side note, I have always loved my Wife, in my head, but never felt the emotion in my heart.

Recent developments have made it so that I took a job 3000 miles away from home, and I had to move quickly. My Wife and new Daughter had to stay behind to deal with the details of moving, and they will join me soon. I have been 3000 miles away for nearly 8 weeks now without them.

Here is where the story gets interesting and why I'm posting it here. My connection with this girl has gotten stronger since I have been so far away. When I was back home, I could feel her, I could tell what she was feeling even though she would deny it. I thought I was just good at guessing or just seeing the signs. Now that I am so far away it has continued. I feel a strong conscious connection, but I have started to recognize a deeper one.

She has recently had a lot of trouble with her boyfriend. I have been getting feelings from her. I can tell her mood, her emotion, without even talking with her. Often I send her text messages to address her feelings before she has told me about them, but she hasn't asked me how I know. I can feel her, I can feel what kind of person she is in her inner most heart. I had been dismissing these feelings mostly because I didn't know exactly how to deal with it or to reconcile it within myself. I'm an emotional infant.

Then, recently I have had 2 dreams. One of them was from her viewpoint, I know because I caught a glimpse of myself in a car window and I was her. I saw people that I didn't recognize. Then later she posted some pictures of people that she was at a party with, it was the same people I saw in the dream, but I had never seen these people prior to that. The other dream was much less comfortable because I was my Daughter again, but in a much more intimate setting with her boyfriend. I really didn't want to experience it, and I think that those moments are not for me to see or experience.

So, I told her about this just 2 nights ago. She told me that she has known about my connection to her for longer than I have known. She told me that I have always known what she was feeling, even when she denies it to me. I don't get anything real strong, just a sense of mood or emotion, but nothing you could just put your finger on. I would describe it as an insight. Until she told me, I had no idea how accurate it was. I have been trying to not feel it because I feel like a voyeur or something, especially with the dream clips that I can remember.

My Daughter believes in Psychic connections and so she has encouraged me to let it happen. She doesn't mind that I can feel her. Odd thing is that it doesn't go both ways, she doesn't seem to be able to feel me. Anyhow, once she encouraged me to just let it happen, I had a really intense burst of... I don't even know what to call it. But it happened while I was asleep. At six in the morning I woke up and had felt her heart completely. I could know the turmoil and conflict she was having over her boyfriend who she had just broke up with. I could feel me in her heart and the strong love she has for me. It was a bit creepy because it was all very feminine and I am anything but. It gave me an insight into what girls feel and how they perceive things, but it was powerful and intense.

I haven't shared that with her yet. I am actually scared of this thing. Why me, and why now, and why with only her? I'm afraid that this could get stronger still. I don't want her to confide in me because she thinks I already know, I want her to confide in me because she trusts me to never be harsh with her spirit. I love her so much and would never do anything to harm her. I feel like I'm her protector.

As you can tell, I'm conflicted about this. I can't deny that it's real, but I am at a loss to explain it. I also feel a lot of guilt over it because I could never share this with my Wife or anyone else for that matter without getting a divorce from my wife of 25 years, or looking like I'm a lunatic. I am grateful for being able to share it here though. I'm open to comments and guidance. There is actually more background, but that could take up a lot more of everyone's time, and I think I have given enough detail for you to get the gist of the situation.

I just re-read this whole post, it reads very matter of fact when I feel anything but. I am actually very emotional right now as I write these things. I seem to get emotional over lots of things now that never would have effected me before. To me, it's actually quite annoying. I'm not the strong logical person I was before, I now have this layer of empathy that I never have had. As I said before, it's difficult to process, but it's getting better.