I'm an empath. I've been one as long as I can remember, though I didn't always know it. For a while now I've been getting visions of bad things that happen soon after. I had deja vu a lot, still do. For a little less time than the vision thing I have been talking to ghosts. I have a spirit guide.
When I was five someone opened my bedroom door and walked in. Thinking it was my father coming to say goodnight, I called out hi Daddy, but there was no answer so I looked up. I could make out the tall black shadow of a man, nigh seven feet high. He didn't speak, and I was given the impression we wouldn't be able to communicate. He stepped closer and reached out a hand. I don't recall what I said, but I think it was who are you. He faded. My father came in to say goodnight. I haven't told anyone.
I wasn't scared of the man really, considered screaming but didn't. I saw him again two years later. I was almost dead but then I sort of saw him talking and making hand gestures. Still not sure what that was, but he helped me. He never spoke to me or touched me. We aren't related and I sometimes felt he was there afterward. Who and what was he?
Several times I have been alone humming to myself or playing music. A voice started humming with me. Sometimes I know songs that to my knowledge don't exist. I have visions of multiple past-lives. I have a Name and I know it.
When I was six or so, my dad and I were at a butterfly place with my friend and her parent. I walked into the one room felt as if I'd just passed through a door into a new place, and turned around to watch it disappear. Before that I have few clear memories. That day a butterfly sat on my shoulder, the one I had tried to let go. He stayed a while and visited me a year later.
Twice recently I felt a pull towards a direction I had to go. Once an old woman had fallen in her bathroom, another time the next week I was watching a truck go by with something bad inside. I have a Voice in my head. It told me to trust my instincts. I sometimes know when someone will die. I've been too scared. What should I do and what is this?
What am I? I'm used to most of it by now, but I'm confused. Sometimes I get scared too, though that's mostly over. I get upset a lot because there's so many I can't help. Any pointers?