I'm new to this kind of thing but I have seen shapes of differing color and magnitude and opacity. I've felt like I'm being watched but I can't explain that I force them out, I'll get back to that. The thing is I see movement in these shapes like thousands of little particles of color, when I concentrate and close my eyes I can make these form distinctive boundaries and shapes but they always seem to move uncontrollably. They usually tend to change or are moved until red and blue are the only left in a swirling stream.
Now back to the feeling that someone's there and forcing it away from me when I feel this energy or whatever it may be that gives me a bad feeling I attempt to move it away I just put my mind to it and it goes away I fear I may be hurting my guide sometimes and I vocally tell whatever to go away and say if its my guide I'm sorry if I harmed it.
I've never really felt comfortable at night in my room and when I'm outside I have almost never had problems with being watched. Or had to force anything but outside the lights I see are amplified. I would really like anyone's help for what I am if I should attempt to amplify what I have. I've always had intuition and a good one and I often get random deja-vu.
Please I don't know what to do or if I'm doing the right thing, help me understand.