I've always been a weird person (ask any of my friends, they'll tell you I'm a freak) and I've always have had "episodes". Most times I'll be talking about a homework assignment (or something along those lines) and the next thing you know, I'm on the floor crying and screaming. After a few minutes, I'll stand back up and start talking from where I left off. As if nothing had happened. The thing is, I don't remember a thing of any of it, to me, I'm still talking but to others, I'm freaking out.
One of my friends likes to tell me about her boyfriends and I'll listen to her describe them. After about a minute or so of listening, I'll tell her when they'll break up, who will break it, and for what reason. She'll look at me and her anger will flare causing me to back up from the pain. Once the time comes, it'll happen and she looks at me asking, "How did you know?" I could never answer that question.
I've always been able to tell how somebody is feeling and what they're thinking about at the moment but I always seem to get a headache if somebody is feeling a really strong emotion. The only way I won't read somebody's mind or feelings is when I look them straight in the eyes and it freaks people out because I don't blink a lot (I don't have a staring problem, I'm not aware that I am staring until somebody points it out.)
If sensing isn't enough, I actually feel somebody else's feelings but worse. It's only happens to the people I'm close to though. One of my friends can walk past me and not show a thing of what they're feeling and I'll burst out crying or screaming about something that happened to them but it only has happened a few times. It scares my friends and anybody who is around me at the moment but I don't remember a thing. I'm still doing whatever I was doing before it happened. It's like I'm doing something while doing something else at the same exact moment.
At night I even have "nightmares" and my friends have a hard time waking me up. I don't remember a thing but sometimes I even wake up strangling one of my friends until I realize what I'm doing. They usually say that I was screaming about somebody coming after me and I would become really still for a moment then start back up again. It's as if whatever I'm dreaming of is repeating itself until I'm woken up. I can't tell you what I'm dreaming about but I know that I always wake up with pains. Sometimes I feel like I've fallen, others like I've been stabbed or I drowned for I taste blood or water in my mouth when I finally wake up.
I need help, I'm lost and so confused. If you have any suggestions on what's happening, please tell me so I can figure out how to handle this.
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