I Believe My Gift Is Escalating

As long as I can remember I have been sensitive to how others around me are feeling. I have also been able to "know" (for lack of a better word) if something is going to happen, whether good or bad. When I was nine, my father passed away on Christmas Eve. My mother was at the hospital with him, my brother and I were staying with our grandparents. My brother being two years old he was having a hard time understanding where mom and daddy were, so my grandmother slept in the bed with us. I remember that early in the morning I woke up, burning hot with a headache (I was not sick), and then hearing the phone ring. I followed my grandmother into the living room and listened to her side of the conversation. I don't remember anything that happened for the next two years after witnessing that.

Since puberty I've been especially sensitive to others around me. I always have chalked it up to surviving a drunk step-father and a mother whose priorities were skewed at the time. I did everything I could to shield my brother from the rest of my family. That seemed to work until I left for college and then all the negative energy put off by the drunk hit him like a ton of bricks.

More recently I've been experiencing extreme feelings from everyone. I pass a nurse at the gas station and feel that she's in some sort of distress. I usually am able to approach them, initiate conversation and then usually casually touch them on the arm. I feel sick afterward, but it goes away in a few hours. I am in a play with a small cast right now and one of my fellow players had to put down her dog on the second night we went on. To this date, that was the worst performance I've ever delivered and I have been in a substantial amount of plays. I need help. Help with shielding, healing and controlling my gift (I suppose you can call it a gift).

At this time I won't even go into the things I've seen and heard, but suffice to say, they were disturbing and startling but not scary to me. Except for one that I've tried to do some research on but have come up with nothing. Ok, I guess since I've started I should proceed. I see things, dark things, from the corner of my eye. I hear pounding from the attic that isn't footsteps. I have heard scratching sounds at my window until recently when I saw a monkey like creature perched on the highest point in my bedroom. It's golden and has sharp teeth. If anyone here knows what it might be, please let me know.