Missing Something

Hey I was reading your post and I'm 15 and that stuff happends to me as well... I thought I was crazy for a little bit that's why I did some research and I'm glad I'm not going crazy

I have a problem. When I go outside I feel like someone is watching me. Does anyone know what that is? 😕

Aeolus the demigod stuff sounds like you have read to much Percy and the the Olympians lol. BUT it is possible that your a strong wind elemental or something in that niche!

[at] Eric-Baal

I tried to send you an email but I typed int the wrong address the first time/. I guessing there is more to your name than meets the eye.

[at] Kahlyn

Glad someone else knows the truth. Please email me at rc_Hardy [at] yahoo.com so we can both share our thoughts and talk. I have written something for all to see and I think you out of all the people would enjoy reading it.

The story of Angel and Demons been corrupted by the Christian church mainly the two didn't help. The reason why the Church made the clear cut white and black difference between angels and demons are to control people through fear. The story of angels and demons are far more complex in my research there are three categories. Angel, Fallen and Demons. The fallen often is confused by the Demon title...

Like I just said, lol: the name doesn't make something good or bad, it's if they choose to live by that name or not.

lol
But arnt demons supposed to be evil? It doesn't make sence if it did lol but good thought to keep in mind:)

I know this will sound bad, but maybe it likes you, maybe it likes your energy. Any demon can travel through the ether witch is made up of energy, and all of us have the same kinds of energy, so it may have found your energy pleasing to it, and just wants to stay, it would be like it likes you. Lol

[at] lyro
I wonder why...
No, I'm not a threat but... Its the same one... Sometimes it watches me sleep o-o
I can tell it won't do anything but... Its always there... Its never a different one

[at] xx_sabrina96_xx Right now, there are a lot of demons around, and they are scouting around to see which people are threats. If you are no threat, don't worry about it, it won't hurt you, or bother with someone that doesn't threaten it (no offense). I've had one following me, and trying to kill me, which it almost succeeded once. Don't feel bad, right now there are a lot of them going around, but I can't really say why...

its just really confusing...:P I don't know but I think I'm being stalked by A demon...

It won't do anything to me, like hurt me. It just watches and I know its one cause... Just the feeling I get when its around... Not very pleasant... And there's those encounters with (I think) it trying to communicate o-o

Sabrina, I don't think you're a demon, and you're not a bad spirit, I would know. Also, having past lives is not the same as Deja Vu.

I think you're a girl. I think you're who you are but maybe something more. I doubt you're a demon. Maybe you're sensing a demon.

Lyro,
Its weird. I think I do too.
The sence of dajavu had been so strong lately.
Like at school we start someting new, I sware to god I did it/ saw it.
Or when someone say something, it'll sound so fimailar, its like they said it before and I remember; then their repeating.

It gets confusing after a while, haha:P

Yes, it is possible to have past lives. I know one of mine already. My name was Jonais Van Rosaken in 14th/15th century southern Germany. I was one in a part of a royal vampiric family. I had brothers and sisters, one sister I have already found, and talk to. I had a wife that was my girlfriend in this life, we still love each other, just not together. We had three kids, 1 boy, and 2 girls. We were married for 100 years until a war. I went missing and obviously killed. I have already written parts of the old language without trying to. And in my sleep, basically my old self sometimes shows itself, but I don't have my whole soul fragment. I will get it, just not right now. With what I am, I will know all my past lives, but I will only get it in time... I have to wait. My sister but a big door in my mind, and when it's ready to open, my soul fragment will be there, but I have to wait for it to open...: (

If I were you I'd be scared to. Maybe you should try to learn you family histoy more and see what you can find out. I have a feeling that there's a lot of secrets in store for you. Not all of them are pleasant. Be careful, ok?:]

And when I read what you wrote its soo simalar to me. Well I'm not sure if I'm a demon, I just feel like I was born with darkness; to the darkness, maybe that's how they can comunicate with me. When I think about my blood flowing threw my vains sometimes, I can feel the darkness flow threw me.

Have you ever got that feeling that your not just human? That your a powerful being but lost?
I feel that way ALL the time. I feel powerful and that I have many powers but don't/know what/how to use them.
I bothers me all the time cause sometimes I just wanna... I don't know rip away my skin.

Its like I'm stuck in a human body that wasn't mine but was born in it. I have to rip out of it and get free. It feels as if I'm trapped inside. In this human cantained body.

Update:

I looked up things about angels. I came upone this website telling you how to cntacte them so they answer you in your dreams. I wanted to see if it would work so I tried it.
Your supposed to write a angel a letter, just like to any of your friends. I did that, then you have to burn it. I did that to. I burned it in the bathroom sink (hehe). But you had to do it a certain way.

That night I barly remember the dream I had. I was at some food place... Or was it a bar? It was some type of club. But anyway, there was a girl and a guy. (The guy was hot LOL) They kind of looked like brother and sister. I can't remember what they told me... It was important. Thats all I know.
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The guy looked like the image I had one day. Remember how I told you I would tell you about the image lover thing? Well I hadn't gotten around to it but Ill tell you know.

I was reading this book called "Shug" and this wave of saddness just hits me. I stopped reading and tried to calm down. Went back to reading, that feeling hit again, my eyes watered. This image of a guy pops in my head. All I saw was shoulder to head. He had either blue or green eyes (i'm pretty sure blue, longish brown hair. He had this determind/ slightly angery look.
And I thought "I love you, I alway loved you." out of no where.
It was really bazare cause I was really crying. But I kept thinking "Why am I crying?"

That night I told Amanda. But it took a lot of effort to tell her. Every time I tried I kept thinking "He's mine, she can't have him!" But I don't even know this person.
After I finally got this out she said she got the chills and crept her out. I Don't blam her.
But that happened awhile while ago.

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The only thing I really want to find out is 'What am i?'; I'm something more, I can feel it.
But I have no clue what. Maybe I am a demom. How do you know if you are?:o

What do you think I am?

-Sabrina
:D

Lol. That is amazing. And I know how you feel, I hate it when it seems like you have a presence with demons. It's so annoying.

UPDATE: I think I'm a demigod. Like half human half god. Like half greek god. I think my father is Aeolus. Because usually when I say weird stuff or stuff my parents do understand they just tell me to get out of here in a funny playful way. (My parents are nice:) But I asked my dad if he was Aeolus (Aeolus is the greek god of winds) and he just laughed and smiled like how people do after they tell you a secret that no one can find out. Then he said "I need a break" because he was fixing my brothers car. But when he sat down a gust of wind came and the sweat on him just disappeared.

Now I"m kind of scared that I might also be a demigod. Just a whole lot more trouble. And I think it's awesome that your color changes. I've always heard of people like that but I never knew it existed. Good luck! And what do you think about that story about me being a demigod? Give me feedback and updates. May the force be with you =3 (I've been wanting to say that all day lol)

Aeolus

I don't know about that... Like I said before I always wear this protection necklace all the time. Also I don't like my room. I never did as a kid and I certainly don't now.

Maybe it could be a angel trying to talk with me... But that doesn't feel right. I don't know I don't think it is.
Also if I don't wear my necklace, I feel overwelmed with... I don't know, Darkness? And precense of things...

I took it off the one day, took a shower, then went in my room. I don't know what I saw, but all I saw was a blackish blue bur blob shoot across my room and up in the ceiling.

Sometimes I feel as if I am darkness. Like its my aura and dark demonic things come and talk to me. Its weird I know, but its as if I was born to them.
If I wear my necklace, I don't feel the darkness and I'm pretty sure I can't get ride of it. Like with herbs and stuff... Its just me.

Their were a few accounts where something demonic talk to me. On the phone twice. I was talking to Amanda and it got staticy and you here "Sabrina will die" I flipped, cause Amanda head it too. Also down stairs, I said someting like "A ghost better not talk. I it better not be here." cause I felt something standing over my sholder, pluse the phone went staticy. Amanda flipped and said something said "I am"

And finally, demonic voices sometimes whisper to me. The one day at school was all drama... Girl stuff (lol) So I asked this girl if she did what people said she did (Well before that something whispered demonicly in my ear saying "Go ask to her" cause I wasn't going to. And when she told me she didn't do it, the voice said "She lie!" it hissed it. It sounding like it was coming from a tunnal, like right behind me.

And my eye color does change but my real eye color is a blue gray. My mom said I have "intense" eyes.

Sorry this is so long XD

Sabrina:] (sorry for spelling mistakes... Im to lazy to fix them v.v)

I'll think about getting journal. And maybe your angel statue is guarding you or something. Maybe an evil spirit comes into the room and it will try to move to protect you.

I don't want people knowing... And I repeat it doesn't bother me. I have this connection with Amanda so we talk about things that happen to us.
Maybe you should keep a journal. I have one. Sometimes I talk to Amanda... But it doesn't feel like all the weight is off of my shoulders... So I write.:]

UPDATE: My tiny statue angel moves... Every day when I wake up its in a different position. Well... Not EVERYday. Just yesterday, it was facing the my window... Were I keep it... And the next when I woke up... It was lying on it back. (tell you the rest w/e I can.) - (Have to get ready for school)

Ps. I also I have to tell you about something else. I think... I say a image of my past lover or something... Tell you about it later.

~Sabrina:]

Then I guess that was just my imagination and not a signal or anything. And your eye color changing. I've heard about that. I don't know what it means or what it is though. I think it means your biokinetic. But I'd stay away from that. If you mess up, your genes could come out of you and who you are as a person will no longer be you. Ikr Creepy.

It still bothers me that I can't tell anyone sometimes. Because I need to find out the truth. Like make contact with god for the real, REAL truth. I'm on my own adventure. I feel like I'm on my own. My only weapon is me. That's who I am now. I don't rely on things, I can't anymore. I rely on myself to make it through the day. And that's all I need to do.

:)
Yes, but her mom isn't dead.
But she has that dream a lot. All her loved ones are dead. Blood every where. Then she starts to look for me and her mom. Were dead, back to back. Blood all over. She told me she cried the first time she had it.

Yeah it is. But after I got his name, he doesn't appear to her anymore. Doesn't watch her sleep. Just completely gone. Amanda tries to block him out. He's not the only ghost she sees in her house.

I have short blond, and REALLY curly hair. My eye color... Is hard to say... It switches... I sware one day it could be dark blue, then light blue a different. Then turn green. Its hard to say... Lol

It doesn't bother me that I can't tell anyone. I keep most things to me anyhow.

~Sabrina:]

Okay, I'm back. Anyways, my advice is to never pass out or go unconscious. Because you might see something scary. You might see Amanda's mom trying to take you to the other side. It's cool how we can guess spirits names. Billy and I always try to rescue them or get them to the other side. Once we rescued some spirits named Ashely, Chelsea, and Zan. After we prayed they'd make it to the other side, we went to the park and found the words "FREEDOM" engraved in the sand. And we also felt a strong essence around it. And thanks for the test trick.

I'm going to have to use that one:). Also quick question. Do you have brown hair and blue, green, or hazel eyes. Because every time you tell me a story about what's happening I imagine you like that. I try to imagine you with blond hair but then it switches back to brown. Sorry I know it's a weird question but I keep wondering why I imagine you like that.

It sucks not being able to tell anyone. I've only told 3 people. And I only talk to 1 about it. That's right, you guessed it, that 1 is my friend Billy. Anyways, keep me updated on anything that happens and I'll do the same.

With hope,
Joseph

Hello! I'm sure I have a past life! I believe I was a seargant in some army at one point, because I grew up knowing a lot of advanced military tactics that I couldn't have learned.
I'm good at strategy games etc. And predicting people's actions.

I was good at it, but wouldn't accept promotions because I wasn't good at working with too many men.

I may have died because I was expendable.

A side effect, ironically, is that I try hard not to kill anything (bugs etc.). I think I made up my mind not to kill, if I can help it, in another life.
But I know I will be calm in a disaster, or in a fight, should one ever occur.

I also believe I once lived in Indonesia because I got a major sense of de-ja-vu when I was listening to some music from there during my World Music course at my college.

(Most of this is guesswork, but I feel that it is true.)

Now, every time I see anything from Indonesia, I get that feeling...

I feel the same way with my friend Billy. It's like were supposed to team up to destroy something or kill something powerful. It's sad the dream Amanda is having. Sounds scary. And I never get scared. I can't talk too much because my family is in the room and I gtg to bed for school tomorrow. I'll leave another comment tomorrow or a few days later k?

I'm not really sure what I'll use it for... But I have a feeling that very soon something will happen... I will practice as much as I can.
Amanda keeps having this dream of me dead next to her mom; who is also dead.
Something...will happen... But what...?
I have no clue I just can tell... Like sortof in the air that something is starting... Something bad...

A year ago I went to this fair with my once friend Amber. We were looking around for something to buy. We found this one cart thing. It had like neclaces that are symboles and stuff.
There was one that caught my eye. I felt the need to buy it and I did.
The symbole was for protection. Every day I were it. If I don't... I feel as if something will happen.

Amanda and me weren't close friends a year ago. Amber used to be my best friend but I always known that we wouldn't last. We were two very different people but I put up with her. We became distant.
Amanda went on my bus. We never talked but this one day I HAD to talk to her. It was this big urge. I'm really shy so it took a lot of effort.

Amber never belived me when I told her things that would happen to me... She came up with a senario. IT DROVE ME CRAZY!

Amanda and me started to hang outmore. We learned about one another. More and more each day I learned something new.
Like she sometimes sees these green ghost in her house. The one watches her sleep.
His name is Dylan.
And how do I know that...?
The one night I slept over. That was the night she told me he watches her but she didn't know his name.

I was thinking what his name would be and Dylan popped in my head. It confused me cause I spell Dylan Dillon.
I told Amanda the next day. She was freaked. A few night after the ghost came and she asked him his name... He said it was Dylan.

I don't know but me and Amanda are connected somehow. And were together for something important.
I'm pretty sure we have an empathy link.
But why were we brought together?
Me and her talked about it and we agree that we are best friends today because something is going to heppen. We have the same things happen.

I practice the ki energy... But know I don't get my gut feelings anymore. Why is that...?

A few days ago I used the ki energy to guess on a question on a test. I know I shouldn't but I wanted to see if it would work. It was a math test >.<
I imagined the energy coming from the ground up and trew my arm to my hand. I kept thinking something. I forget something with a ryhm. Like "Show me the answer threw my hand." I don't remember. My hand started to twich. I started to write the letter C...
I got it right. I didn't even look at the problem or the choices... Told Amanda she said to me "Oh! Thats why I saw you twich in class. Your back was tense and you jumped in your seat. You looked constapated." (LOL) I told her I didn't twich and she told me "Yeah, you did."

Sorry this is so long...
Haha...

It's awesome that your practicing with ki energy. I see the energy because I think about the molecues and atoms in the energy. I try to throw it then I picture the energy leaving my hands and changing all the air energy all around it more powerful. Since wind is my natural element, thinking about air helps too. And knowing how to use ki is always good. I keep practicing with stuff so nobody will ever mess with me at school. I don't get made fun of anyways, I have a HUGE group of friends and are friends with a bunch of people in different grades too. But the point is, this stuff could come in handy in life too. What are you going to use ki for?

lol
When I type fast I spell things wrong... Sorry (haha)
But, yeah I think it is too. Except I can't see the energy >.< How do you?
I think I made one once. I only made a ball, I didn't do anything with it.
I could tell I made one, cause Amanda felt the air between my hands and said it was electric feeling. Or something like that. Once I stopped my hands were really hot. Like I suck them in a oven with heat.

And I also used the ki energy to help heal Amanda from pains she sometimes gets. It works:]

I also noticed if I concentrate on my hands and think "hot" they"ll heat up.

lol. I was kind of freaked out at first because you said "beat" friend. Like beating up somebody. But I know it was just a spelling mistake. Anyways, it's good to know you can do that. I never tried it because I'm a lot more powerful then my friend. But I know how to shoot a ki or psi ball. I blasted it out and I saw blue energy go into my wall. I forgot to make the shell, lol. But ki energy is one of the best weapons in my opinion.