A few months ago I was told by a highly regarded clairvoyant that I am an empathic clairvoyant. Thirty years after being born and my life finally starts to make sense. She also told me that I could become a psychic but she warned against it because of the time and energy devoted to it.
I've spent much of my life trying to avoid my abilities. I fought hard against them. Consequently, I fell into an anxious state. I suffered from anxiety for a number of years. I ended up conquering it and got back to living life more fully.
Now I know that the abilities will always be there, no matter how hard I try to alleviate them. With that knowledge, I'm trying to live in acceptance of them and to use those abilities as something beneficial to myself and to all those around me. The problem is I don't really know what I should be doing.
The biggest thing for me right now is being comfortable in my body and in this world. I'm working hard on boosting my confidence level, on meditation skills, and being more in the moment.
I understand how to control it. I've done that for a long time. What I really want to know is how to use it to an advantage. How do I master it? How do I make it work for my life and to help make the world a better place?
Since my meeting with the clairvoyant I've made some huge changes in my life. Instead of running away from the abilities, I've been spending lots of time learning to embrace them. Is there anything besides meditation I should be doing? I've already started to use moldavite, which has helped a lot so far. And I'm a lot more open about everything too.
The abilities that are most pronounced right now are, first, the empathic. I walk into a room full of strangers and I can tell, for the most part, what each person is feeling and what he/she is typically like.
I don't know if this is an ability or not, but for a long time it's been more of an obstacle to me. My mind is incredibly active. Even without closing my eyes, I can see various surroundings and the most vibrant details. Recently, I've been able to calm it down quite a bit, but I can't control it when I'm sleeping. My dreams are often quite vivid. Sometimes I'll wake up and have a beautiful piece of music in my head, but it's nothing I've heard before. I've tried learning the guitar, but no sense of passion for playing music.
Astral planing has been a big focus, but only recently have I discovered what it is.
I used to have a lot of "coincidences" happen around me, but that one has become less and less. It usually happens if I'm around someone else who is aware.
If you have any ideas, please help. Right now, I'm writing a book. I'm also looking at getting into life coaching and motivational speaking. Numerous times I've been told to go into acting. I know that's going to take some time, but it's a great outlet for me. What I'd like to know for now is how else I can work on my abilities. Your advice and comments are greatly appreciated.
Thank you for writing you story - it is really honest and peace-giving to read and yours too - Angel36 and Baby Eyes 1.
Ermacd, one thing that did strike a chord the most with me reading your story was how much you avoided your abilities and how hard you fought against them. I have been experiencing an inner battle that has grown in intensity over the years, after a series of punctuations in my life experiences by mediums who came out with blunt, but kind, feedback about my ability. I really empathise with you and I go through phases of being totally connected and fulfilling the psychic/mediumistic powerfulness I have been given and other times, disconnecting completely from it (or so I like to believe) with various escape-it-all tactics, that are becoming tiresome even to me. But I am learning to be as kind to myself as others say I am to them and all I can say honestly is that I am on a personal journey, that while painful, I know I am continually developing and that this is almost the greater part if not definately of my journey - to accpet God's gift to me (and others) and use it openly, not suppress it or hide my light under a bushel. The main thing for me has been facing why I push it away, as it gets ever stronger.
I got online quite late tonight to read your input Dezdoll88, but would like to reassure you before I go is not to be araid of what you are experiencing - I know that is easier said than done - but I have this experience most days and it was really heart-warming to read your words, because I get it happen a lot and I never talk about it to people in the various communities I am part of, because they rationalise it or label me weird and I know in my heart it is a gift and it is nice that here - I don't have to hide it and can talk about it openly.