Feeling My Future Self?

Yes. It is I, again writing for help. As always, I have more questions. I cannot help but ask them. I can not help but yet again bring my questions to your attention, hoping that in doing so I will find what answers I am seeking. I feel as though my abilities are strengthening. This thrills me, and worries me. With each passing day, though worried, I hope that they continue to grow.

A few days ago, I was thinking about my boyfriend and all of a sudden I had a vision. A vision of us getting married. (I have seen us married many times.) I felt the nervousness. I felt as if it was actually happening right then. This made me wonder. Is it possible to feel the emotions in my visions? Or is it just that it was pf me and so I knew how I would feel?

I also have begun to wonder something else. Sunday while I was sitting in youth group I felt something bad. I get feelings all the time, but this was very strong. And what came to mind was death. I was scared because it was such a prominent feeling. I was afraid it was someone very close to me. Then Monday my friend wasn't at school. I couldn't get a hold of him. Today he was in class, and I come to find out that he thought about killing himself Sunday night. My question here is whether or not this is part of my psychic-ness or part of my empathicness? Was I knowing what was going to happen, or knowing what he was thinking? And how can I decipher my feelings and visions further?

I would love to hear your thoughts.:) Please don't be shy.