Psychic Patterns

I'm Saille, and I've been seeing the future since I was three. Occasionally my brain will spark. When it happens, whether I'm sleeping or awake, I see through time.

Dreaming visions are easiest. I fall asleep, see the future in very random images (i.e. I saw Bugs Bunny and a helicopter from a movie three years in the future), and then wake up. No side effects.

Waking visions, or daydreams, are harder. My brain sparks and sends me into a trance. Depending on how deeply I go, I start to tap out a pattern with my foot or hand. Tap-tap-tap-tap-tap. Then I see a very bright mist and move through it into another reality. EVERY sense is used, and I'm suddenly months or years older, acting out another time. Then I wake up.

I had these in cycles until eleven years old. When I was eleven, I hit puberty, and the cycle sped up. I found out some valuable things: The time between a vision and it coming true can last anywhere from a week to nine years, there was a cycle of visions, nothing, and then coming-trues, and that I couldn't control the visions.

Then they stopped.

While they were stopped, I found out that my dad was an abusive jerk. I ended up suicidally depressed, which may have contributed to my visions being gone. A few weeks ago, they came back.

At the moment, there are a few key differences in my waking visions. The first is that I can activate them through meditation\ energy manipulation. The second is that instead of a white mist, there seems to be darkness around the scenes.

I'm not sure what all this means. I'm trying to record any patterns I spot, though. My hope is that I can analyze my powers to the point where I can control and use them to help people, or at the very least start finding out what Seers can do.

Has anyone else had these kinds of visions? Do you notice patterns in them? Please let me know--I'm not sure why my visions are different, and I'd like to find out!