I was wondering if anyone could help me understand what I've experienced or confirm if this is all in my head.
I've had a lot of dreams about deceased people. Some are loved ones, family and non-family members but all people I know. In these dreams they come to me and they are always entering through a doorway of some sort, whether if be in a house or a building. They converse with me, cry with me and tell me things. Sometimes it seems the messages they give me are really for someone else and I am suppose to pass the message to someone else.
In addition to these dreams, I've experienced times, usually at night of an unknown presence in my room. One early morning, after my husband got out of bed, while I was still in my bed, I felt someone sit at the foot of my bed. I could even hear the bed squeak as it sat there. I thought it was my husband but when I looked there was no one there.
Being so afraid, it was so hard to sleep at night. I would always feel something in the room. One night I saw an image of a tall man standing over my bed but it was very faint. I could sense that the image or the thing over my bed does not mean me any harm but at the same time, I was just scared out of my wits. I can sense it was a calm spirit or something, almost as if it wanted to say something to me. This went on for a couple of days. I was just so scared to sleep at night. I cry almost every night to my husband. He was very supportive and stayed up until I fell asleep.
One time, I dreamed about my late Grandmother. In the dream she was standing next to my bed as in the exact same setting as my room. When my husband woke me up after hearing me scream or something, I woke up, told him I was just having a bad dream, but when I turned the other way from where I was facing to try to go to sleep again, I saw my late grandmother sitting on that other side too. After screaming, my husband grabbed me to ask what was wrong, when I turned back, she disappeared.
My dad is a shaman so he came over and did a spiritual thing to clear bad spirits from me. Since then whenever I dream about people who has passed away, my dad would always be in my dreams, waking me up from my dream within my dream (weird). (This was all 2 years ago). I was able to go back to living a normal life and having regular dreams and nightmares.
I've recently started dreaming again. This time, my dad isn't so much in these dreams. The weird thing is when I'm having a bad dream or dreaming about someone who has passed away, while dreaming, I know that I am dreaming and I try to wake myself up. I do this by screaming for help, hoping my husband would hear me and wake me up. It's very difficult but after a long and stressful try, he eventually hears me and wakes me up. I again, felt someone sit at the foot of my bed once more. And just as a note, I now live in a different house. One night, my husband must have woken me up 3 times and each time I would fall back to sleep and continue to same dream and I would scream my lungs out over and over again to get my husband to wake me up.
There was even one night where I must have been dreaming the same dream my husband was. When I woke up, he was calling out someone's name, the same name that was in my dream. When I asked what he dreamed, he could not remember.
I went to go see a psychic medium and he told me that when I reach 40 years of age I would become somewhat a psychic medium for healing people and that my guides have only visited me but they won't actually come to me until then. The psychic medium also said my guides questioned why I was upset at them when they are only here to help me. I am now 31 years old.
Still so scared in my own home and unable to sleep at night, I went to go seek another medium. This medium is an aunt, related to me by marriage. She was is new at the being a medium and her responses are through writing (her guides uses her hand to write their responses and she reads it aloud). This aunt told me something different. She told me she did not see me as a medium or having any guides. I don't think she was speaking of the future... But then again, who knows.
I don't know what to believe? Most of the time I tell myself that I am just crazy and that maybe I think too much which probably led to the many odd dreams and the feeling that there is something following or watching me. I feel so bad for my husband for having to deal with my scared behavior each night, I apologize to my husband everyday for being so crazy, weird and that I know this is all just in my head.
I am so confused, scared and don't know what to do. I don't know why I'm getting these dreams, feeling like someone or something is around me. What is happening to me? Can you confirm if I'm crazy or if something is actually happening here?
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