Need Affirmation

I have been told twice that I have some kind of "gift." The first person said that I had healing hands (I can't recall how long ago when I was told this). Until this day, I'm not sure what this means. My hands are as normal as can be and nothing magical comes out of it.

The second time I was told this was in January of 2009, by a shaman. Since this is more recent I have more details to share.

My parents had asked a shaman to come and bless the family and cleanse the house for the New Year.

Several weeks prior to this event, I had a dream of a little scary girl. Although she was scary looking, I wasn't scared of her, but the physical state of my dream felt odd. I can't explain how odd, but I just remembered the scene of the dream had an effect on me.

Nights afterward I would wake up at 2:30 a.m., and would not be able to go back to sleep until 5-6 a.m. Me waking up at 2:30 and not being able to sleep lasted for several weeks. I also have an interest in the paranormal so I've read things that relate to what was happening to me. I assumed that I was experiencing paranormal activity. So, after the shaman blessed and cleansed the house, I asked my parents if the shaman could help look into why I was experiencing these things.

Right as soon as he started he stopped. He looked over at me and told me not to worry, that there was nothing negative, but that my spirit guides were trying to communicate with me because it was time. I asked what he meant and he said that they are rushing to get to me and that they have limited time. That was all he said. He wouldn't go further because he said that my guides did not give consent for him to console with my purpose. I don't know what that means.

Anyhow, I was like whatever (I have to admit, although I believe in these kind of things, I'm also somewhat of a skeptical) but that night. I finally felt at peace at night and was able to sleep. But now when I sleep, I start to have weird dreams. Dreams of training in flight with beautiful people in white wardrobes, dreams of fighting, dreams of seeking. My physical world started to get weird too, I was getting paranoid. I would wake up with my body aching, my head would be cloudy and clogged. The only way to get rid of the headaches was if I breathed in a rhythm. But every time I did, I felt as though everything was lighter and when walking, I felt as though if I was flying.

I guess the purpose of my entry is to get validation that these are true experiences that do happen to others and how can I learn how to become more active in this state while being able to handle it?