Deeper Into The Connections

Looking harder, getting bigger answers and still feeling like the more I learn the lease I know. I have experienced many events in my life that have leaded me to believe that there is a way to connect to something great out there. Call it God, Creator and many more names and meanings. I believe the connection to that power is like a finger print. Everyone's are very similar but different in their own way. I was guided to look at Kabbalah and I have found some shocking results. In my last story The Connections http://www.psychic-experiences.com/real-psychic-story.php?story=2624

I talked about walking down the road one day kind of dancing to my music in my headphones. My arm would go up and lighting would shoot across the sky. It happened four times on that short walk and it may have lighting 1 or 2 times from the time it started and ended. I would say it lasted about 10-15 minutes. At the time I tried not to think about it and thought my body and some type of sensation ability. Well one night, just recently there was a huge lightning storm. Out of no where I thought O.K. If the human being and lighting can have a connection and I can access with meditation I should see results. So I got up and went to the screen door and closed my eyes for about 10 sec and thought of a connection symbol of God used in Kabballah.

I think this is one of the first times meditating that way for me so I wasn't sure what I was going to feel. I started to feel electricity running though my arms and fingers after about 5 sec. I opened my eyes and moved my arms together as to collect the electricity. As soon as I pointed my arms to the left a very large bolt of lightning struck and the connection I felt with it was one I have not felt before. I started to shake my head saying no and thought Kabballah tells you not to doubt yourself. So I slowly stopped my head from shaking from side to side and somehow turned that negative energy into positive. I soon as I felt it turning I pointed my hands to the sky and lightning struck again. It wasn't very big this time and I did not feel the same connection as the first but it still happened. This happened one more time and then I stopped. I shake my head because it is the only thing I did in the past. I stopped and sat down and tried to look it up on the internet but had no luck. I am trying to figure out if it is a sensation or manipulation. Was it God just saying yes you can connect with the elements or me in many ways? I am still in disarray and would like some help looking in to this.