My husband and I just got married 10/2008. As we are both 25 and I am a full time student, we really don't have money to get our own place. So we are currently living in a room we are building in my grandmother's garage. Being our first year of marriage it has been very hard. Especially because my grandmother and him no longer get along. My husband had a rough childhood, his mother left him, his dad was completely negative towards him, and every other girlfriend of his somehow put him down. He now has a negative attitude and a huge sense of paranoia. Now that we're married though, not only is every out to get him but he unknowingly is trying to convince me that people are out to get me.
I have always had a natural ability, which from my past post I have been blocking for a long time. Now I am realizing that it is truly a gift and I am trying to encourage it in myself and working on strengthening it. The problem that I come across is with his natural negative attitude and the fighting with my grandmother that causes fighting with me, along with the natural tension that comes with the first year of marriage I feel the house just filling with negative energies. Some of which I believe have been attached to him for a very long time. He is also into psychic abilities, but he goes about it a different way. The only way I can explain it is he almost threatens the higher ups to see if they can scare him. Like a "come and get me" attitude. And the rest are new beings that are attracted here from all the tension.
I have asked him to try and calm down, and told him that it's bringing more negativity here and isn't helping him get rid of whatever is attached to him, but it's not working very well. I have talked with my grandmother and have asked her to come to me if she has a problem. I have given him books that I already have read and suggestions to try to help him feel more secure in our relationship, and help us actually communicate rather than fight. But it seems that he doesn't have an interest in anything I say or do.
In the end it is really hurting my practices. I am terrified of my room and house at night. I have to even sleep with a night light on so I'm always able to see what's around. Every night I ask my spirit guides and angels to protect me when I'm trying to sleep. This of course is when anything negative tries to come to me. I can barely even meditate anymore because I don't feel safe at all in my own home. I'm completely at my wits end, and can't come up with a sensible solution. Any suggestions would be appreciated!
Thank you and God bless!