July of last year my fiancé and I were invited on a boating trip with friends. My fiancé, "Tom", was an avid boater. This trip had been planned for about a month.
The day of the trip I had an uneasy feeling from the moment I woke up. I absolutely did not want to go on the boat, to point that I considered faking that I was sick. However, against my better judgment, I decided to just get ready and go because Tom was so looking forward to it and I didn't want to disappoint him. In hindsight, EVERYTHING seemed like it was in alignment to keep us from going. He was late getting out of work. Our babysitter was late coming over. I had this uneasy feeling. My son had a dream the day earlier that someone was chasing me, trying to kill me, but I had gotten away. That also played into my uneasy feeling but was not the sole cause of it. Just an unexplainable sense that something was not right.
The operator put the boat in gear while we were swimming off the back of the boat and Tom and I were both hit by the boat. I was rescued by one of the passengers on the boat. However, Tom died that day.
I awoke today, almost 9 months later, with that same uneasy feeling. It is unshakeable. No way to explain it, just this sense of doom. Also the number four has been so prominent in my mind since the time I woke up. The number four has also been a recurring number for me from the time Tom and I started dating. At one point, I was looking at a clock at 4:44, am and pm for 10 or 11 days straight. I would wake up in the middle of the night & look at the clock, guess what? 4:44 am. I would be unable to sleep and think "Geez, what time is it?" 4:44 am. Weird. I did talk to Tom about this because it was so weird. Also, we were 4 hours late getting to the boat and the accident occurred four hours after we arrived on the boat. I have not had the four thing going on since the accident until today. Today is the first day of the fourth month, but, I don't see how that could be giving me such an uneasy feeling.
I have had a number of premonitions in the past. I have had dream premonitions in the past. I have had countless feelings of the "uneasiness" and then something negative happened. The day of Tom's death and today being the strongest. Obviously, I did not foresee Tom's death, or there is no way I would have let him go on the boat, but I do feel it was a premonition on some level.
I have always felt like I have some type of psychic abilities. Or maybe someone is looking over me, kind of guiding me. Is there any way to hone in on these feelings/premonitions? They are definitely there. This is the story of just one day in my life. There are countless others to which the premonitions apply, this is just the most extreme one for me.
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