I've never been a psychic. I never see anything, hear or do anything that couldn't have been explained. Yet the events of this year make me wonder. I had a rough 3 years, emotionally I felt very empty, I didn't know what to do and I couldn't talk to anyone, and then in April of this year I came across this word "dowse". I researched it and tried one session. Been dowsing every day ever since. It helped me a lot, I felt more balanced and at peace, and then my neighbor died, I never knew him, his relatives came to take care of his stuff, they got rid of many things, including a Rune book that came to my possession. I've read many books, but this one was different. When I was reading it I had a feeling that it was ME who wrote it but then somehow I forgot... This book brought me so much peace and hope, it's hard to put it in words.
Along with the book there was a set of runes, but I didn't use it - it's missing one rune and I just don't feel it's right. But every day I draw a rune from a rune site and I do that by dowsing. They are never wrong. And recently when my pendulum was swinging I saw a hand, at first I didn't even understand what was going on, and then I caught myself on the thought that this is not my hand. It was black with kind of white light around it and it was like pulsating or maybe it was just trying to reach the pendulum. Then it was gone. That night I could swear there was somebody in the room with me. Have you ever been shocked by this pranking toys? I felt something like that on my hill, as if somebody pressed it against my foot, it was very distinct but kind of pleasant. I had goose bombs all over and had a strange feeling that there was somebody very close to my ear. Then it was gone. And it didn't come back. I know it sounds weird but I miss it. And I want it to come back and I just don't understand why did it just stop? And the day that follow I felt so disconnected, just complete unbalanced.
It's bothering me because when we just moved in into this apartment on my first night saw a very strange dream - I saw a baby, the baby was in my room, in fact it was right in front of my bed and it was a little girl and she was crying. I have a child but I didn't feel like comforting this baby, mothering it, instead I felt very aggressive (I'm very peaceful and quiet but if I need to protect my family I feel like a mad dog who's ready to tear everyone apart) and that's exactly how I felt and I just came to this baby and shout:" You are not going to get anything here..." and the baby turned ugly, and with a freaky voice said:" We'll see about that" Than I saw a man all in blood and I knew somehow that he died in a some kind of accident and woke up. I never had that dream again, yet many times my rocking chair would move as if somebody just stood up and few times I slept with my lights up because I just didn't feel safe. But not now, I went to church and got blessing and everything is quiet. And yet I think what if all that is happening is a trick of that "baby", what if I'm fooling myself and I don't feel that I do, I'm not scared of it, don't have this feeling of danger. But as I said at the beginning - I'm not psychic and I don't know any better what if this is a trap and I'm falling for it? I want it to come back and I don't know what shell I do for it or shell I even bother do anything at all. Can you please give me some advice?
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