I am writing today because I have been experiencing many things that don't seem to make sense to anybody and since the subject keeps slapping me in the face, I must look into it further. I found this site in my quest for information on my "abilities". I hope that some of you can maybe guide me in the right direction.
My first recollection of 'dejavu' was when I was 6ish and I shocked my dance teacher by knowing the routine before she had taught it. I didn't think much else of it.
I have seen 'dark figures' in homes, on porches, even in the back seat of my car, although it is normally out of the corner of my eye and at one point in my life, I actually avoided one country road because I would see someone hanging from a tree. Talk about being freaked out by that one. I have also seen a few 'people' in full color and known they weren't real because they disappeared and no one else saw them. Who knows how many more I may have seen and not realized they were not 'real'?
I get these strong feelings about things, either a calm that everything is going to be fine or a burdensome feeling that let's me know that the outcome of a situation is going to be bad.
This is just a sampling of my experiences and I don't want to go on forever. I just want to know what am I supposed to do with this, if anything? And are there people who can mentor me? I get overwhelmed sometimes by it all. I recently saw something on TV that caught my attention. It stated that many people were being treated for mental illness only because they were not taught to deal with these abilities. And since I have been medicated most of my adult life for chronic depression, it made me wonder even more. Please advise!
I'd like to think I'm not crazy, and my family all scream that I'm messing with 'evil things' that go against everything they believe in. To be honest with you, I have been afraid to look into this for the longest because I was afraid to find out something that would go against what my upbringing taught me. But I have learned that just because someone doesn't believe in something doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Thanks for your time and opinions.
But...you don't have to do this alone. Let us help you, you don't have to face these things alone.
-Love and understanding, Val [3rd Vendetta]