Black Wolf

When I was in 4th grade, at my cabin, I had just gotten into a fight with my mother and I had taken my pocket knife with me and I planned on killing myself. I got to an open spot, I stood there, crying. Then out of no where, my left hip hurt. There were teeth marks, there were a very very large amount of blood as well. I looked over and saw a very very large black wolf running away. This wolf had bitten me, and I was bleeding. My mother and father found me. I know for a fact the black wolf was real, or at least the bite was. After than day, I have seen this black dog every couple of weeks, all over the world. I used to think that the wolf was bad, it stopped me from killing myself. I just have no idea what else it could mean. I have never felt threatened, just more like strongly I felt stronger or more sure of myself. I did some research and I know that black colored things are usually bad, especially when considering it's a dog or wolf form. But the problem I have, and why l'm reaching out, is because I don't know what it means. I don't feel scared of the wolf, I don't feel threatened by it. I am an 18 year old, about to graduate high school. I'm not sure what any of this means, but if you have any ideas at all please please let me know. M l k