I Feel Different, What Am I?

Hey everyone! I'm MoonInsideMe but the page doesn't allow me to log in, so I had to crate another account, but I still have the same email AresWulf911 [at] gmail.com if you want to email me, please do. 😊

Light worker, starseed? I heard that there are categories or types for psychics or light workers who came. You could be a guardian or warrior. I think you are a warrior. Some of your thoughts match with mine. You are probably at a very young stage. Once you develop more, you'll start connecting properly with everyone. I believe that. To fulfill your goal, you must be able to understand and sense all... I believe. Hehe... I hope this helps.

[at] lycan: I'm so happy you find your way to my post! Talk to you by mail 😉

Oh wow. Just wow.
I really didn't think there were people like me, or what I am was actually a thing. After reading the article and this thread I felt a warmth inside of me which made me feel like I wasn't alone, I don't know what I'm going to think from now on knowing that there's people like me but I am glad I don't feel as secluded, especially reading Ares' since I can relate to her the most, it's just amazing. Everything here just describes me. Ever since I was young I have always felt different and felt like nature was my calling, as if belonged in some mythical forest where I had a purpose and be surrounded by creatures and kind people. It just sounds like heaven to me and I've made it my happy place if I want to conjure up the world in my mind. To this day I still feel lonely, there's just no one I can relate to and literally I'm living life at a really low point, it's very depressing and I don't deserve to feel this way. Please contact me guys at irfaan11 [at] hotmail.com:) We can just talk about anything really, how you feel and discuss anything you want to discuss. Very grateful for everyone sharing how they feel.

Heyy [at] dianadobreva: i'd love to talk to you. Pls email me at AresWulf911 [at] gmail.com I'd really like to talk to you. 😊 so happy thay I'm finding people like you ❤

I've always felt very different, too. The older I get, the more different I feel. I've posted here a few times, and have mentioned an email address that people can contact me at. It seems like I only draw people looking for sympathetic ears. No one who really understands what it is I'm going through.

I'm highly empathic, and lately I've been in the midst of some deeply negative emotions. Something really bad just happened in my family, and I've been a wreck, dealing with my own emotions, and those of other family members (one in particular, who was very hurt). It's been the worst time of my entire life.

I see the world very differently. It seems like there's always a sort of vague picture of the universe in my head, along with a reminder that I'm not even a speck in comparison to the vastness of the universe. It's estimated that around 100 billion modern humans have lived, or currently live, and I understand very well that I'm only one of them. I'm one of an unimaginable number of organisms to live here on planet earth, let alone elsewhere.

I don't see myself as being a special, unique entity the way a lot of humans do. I understand the ephemera of life all too well. I look around and see most people doing the same thing; driving to work on the freeway in the morning, returning in the evening, never really wondering what the point of it all is.

I spent a while trying to figure out if I might be something like a starseed. The problem is that without any actual evidence, it can never be more than a theory or something you want to believe. Without evidence, it isn't reality. And I could never come up with any actual evidence.

I feel a strong calling to serve what I think of as the greater good. I'm aware that there's a sort of rhyme and reason to everything that's happening. I think there's a plan at work. I think everything is happening for a reason, but I'll be damned if I can figure out what it is.

I'm a political activist, and I've put myself at high risk for my cause. My cause is the preservation of a certain forest, here in the US. It's in serious danger of being destroyed over the next few years, and I'm battling massive government agencies content to let that happen. I've pissed some pretty powerful and well-connected people off. Even though my tactics are 100% non-violent, I know I'm on some lists.

I'm going to pay someday for the things I've done, and truthfully, it scares me. But I keep doing it anyway. In fact, since things have gotten bad with my family, I've gone at my activism even harder.

It blows my mind how so many people can live their lives oblivious to the big picture, and the many terrifying problems facing us. That's very contrary to my basic nature. My nature is to care about everything, and I suffer horribly because there's so much suffering in the world, and no way of stopping it all.

I believe our planet is headed for serious trouble, and there aren't nearly enough people doing anything in response to create any hope of preventing the disaster inevitably coming. I really wish I could just wake up from what feels like a nightmare. Everyday, it feels a little more hopeless.

Anyway, I do understand what you're talking about. I also have a deep appreciation for nature. Lately I've been growing things; trees, that I'll be planting outdoors this coming spring, and cacti and succulents, and other things. Sometimes I can spend hours looking at my plants. I feel better when I'm near them. Honestly, I don't know what I'd do rnow if not for my plants.

Something else: I've experienced a lot of synchronicity, especially in regard to actual time. I have strange experiences with time-telling apparatus. When there's more than one clock in a room, I find the seconds perfectly synchronizing. I see the number 11 constantly. It's getting crazy how often I see either number 11, or some interval of 11. 121, for example, is 11 squared. 33 is 3 x 11. And it's not just me seeing the number 11 on clocks. Other people do things, and things happen related to the number 11.

I'll be damned if I know what's so important about the number 11, but I see it everywhere.

Anyway, that's probably enough for now. Let me toss my email address out there for you, or anyone else who'd like to contact me. I only ask that if anyone contact me, it's not just to tell me about your problems or your psychic abilities.

As far as psychic abilities of mine go, I don't really consider myself psychic, per se. Being as empathic as I am, I can sense things about people. I often get strong feelings about people that turn out to be accurate.

With that, here's my email address. Whiskeydango at gmail.

Do feel free to reach out if you can relate (anyone).

Take care.

maybe you were reincarnated from a past life, maybe? I. Don't. Know.

so, yes I also have read that article, and I am also a starseed, but now what? What should I do now? What next steps to take? Just reading that article is not enough, we should do something to clarify everything, but what?

Thanks a lor Jubeele, i'll try that as soon as I can ❤ I'll practice to "remember" myself

Hi MoonInsideMe, I felt called to the site today and now I know! 😊 "Starseed" does indeed describe much of what you've mentioned about yourself. I'm glad you now know that you're not alone feeling like this.

Lightworkerhealer has also mentioned what I've advised, which is to meditate. It will help clear your mind so that you can focus on what you truly need.

The garden will be good for you as your empathy with the earth needs that connection. Practise drawing light from the universe to help protect and replenish yourself. Imagine roots from your feet reaching deep into the earth. Let out the negativity from you. Feel white light from the heavens coming through the top of your head from the crown chakra. Let the light flow into you and through all of your body, and into your surroundings. If you feel there is too much energy, let the excess flow out through the roots at your feet back into the earth.

I hope this all helps. I wish you well on your journey. ❤

[at] lightworkerhealer: I looked into it and I actually think I am a starseed! I'm was so happy when I was reading the article.
For the people who feel this way, I have this link that pretty much describes us. Thanks a lot again!
Https://www.gaia.com/lp/content/are-you-a-starseed-27-starseed-characteristics-that-might-give-you-an-answer/

Thanks a lot Lightwokerhealer, I'll look into it!:) and I'll try meditating more

I resonate with your feelings, however the best description of you, will not come from outside. It will come from within. So try meditating and see what comes up, and it might take a few times of meditating to actually see or get some insights if you already don't meditate regularly. To me you feel like a starseed. Search the term Starseed. 😊 ❤