Several years ago I awoke and told my boyfriend at the time to tell him to never ever go to a particular concert. I was terrified that something was going to happen at it. I told him that it would probably be in England but that I wasn't sure of the location. I would try to pinpoint the location and the time but I couldn't do it. I would just get really, really, upset. I just knew it was going to happen. At the time, I felt really horrible. I felt like people were targeting women and children on purpose. I remember reading something that someone was going to laugh about it (online troll) -- I told my then boyfriend about it at the time as well. He made some sort of joke, and I kind of agreed with him even though I really didn't. But mostly I just felt really, really sad.
We weren't going to be able to stop it. There were several other experiences that year that have also come true this year, regarding the Trump administration, as well as a few things that were in the year before that. Does anyone else experience this kind of "time layer"-- where many things from several years all happen at once? I've had them all damned week-- things from even 7 years ago popped up this week.
I'm wondering if it signals some kind of shift. Cosmic or within myself or both? I'm trying to be objective, and I had wanted to write this after it had happened, but I couldn't bring myself to at the time. And when I did have those intense feelings about something bad happening, and telling my friends/family about it, I tended to get blown off. And even if I try to talk to them about it, they ignore it or they will try to blow it off or convince me I am crazy. I hold on to the belief that I am not crazy, no matter how many others make fun of me, or whatever.
Another thing, the other morning while I was drinking my coffee, I was watching a robin. This robin was just pecking at the ground, looking for worms. I silently asked it how it found them. It moved closer to me and cocked its head a little, and then I saw him peck the ground, and grab a worm very clearly. But mostly it was just a really neat experience, and made me feel peaceful. Anyway, sometimes I doubt my ability to see things. I can convince myself that I saw the robin this morning with the worm, like when I was little and really wanted to see a wolf, in our neighborhood, and then it showed up, I was the only one who saw it, and it was never seen again. Or that it was the physical manifestation of "the early bird gets the worm." I've also been seeing a lot of butterflies lately, which always make me happy.
Thanks for any input.
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