Tough Childhood

I'm native from Costa Rica, i'm 17 years old, and this my history.

-When I was more younger, around 7 or 8 years, I started to seing things, mostly of them, was related to my dreams, some others turns into reality, the fact, that one night when I was sleeping, I felt something that jump on my bed and then goes away, I was unable to said a word in that exactly moment, something that I would never forget, the time pass as usual, and the situation in my home everyday seemed worst, my beloved 'Mum' she start to consuming drugs and alcohol, one day she came very late to our little rent flat, and then she fall's down to the floor, with twelve years, I was crying, thinking about if she's dead, what I supposed to do?

-I get a little closer, and instantly I felt some sort of shivers, I don't know how to explain myself in this part, every seconds become heavier, and suddenly a lot of images, moments, people than I don't even know in my whole life, appears in my mind, I was crying, like seeing all the sins in all humanity history, I started to pray, my mum woke up, and hug me like she never does before.

In the next years, that was in 2012, she's been struggling with the bottle, definitely quite the drugs, now she had a partner, it seems a good person, nowadays 09|01|17 I can't sleep and I got the same feeling from that day with my mother, totally afraid by the darkness, I saw some shadows, lights, Jesus Christ, I tried to avoid them but it's impossible, how I can face my past? Help me, everything in my life took me to this website.