Since I can remember I have had experiences which is hard to explain. I used to shrug it off as just having a vivid imagination, as that is what I was told from a young age. My first experience which I am able to recall is one night when I was about 4/5 years old, I was sleeping on a mattress in my parents room, when in the middle of the night I wake up and see a monster thing which was huge and a murky brown colour with a face which was spikey around the edges (almost like a primitive blade made of rock) and red beady eyes crawling over me towards my face, I started crying and told my parents I saw the devil, I was told then about my imagination. I also heard a voice when I was 7, clear as day.
Ever since I will wake from sleep and either see snakes or spiders and I know afterwards that it can't possibly be real but during that moment it feels so real and terrifying. An example of this is one night sleeping next to my husband I wake up and see porcupine quills growing out of my husband, I know this is not possible but during that "hallucination" I believe it to be true. During the daytime I see people at times but not clearly and then I realize that I had mistaken an object for a person (but I can see a blurry face). I also get sleep paralysis at times, this is also terrifying. The most recent incidents were also waking at night and being fully aware and seeing a big red snake slithering on my husband (these images are as clear as day and look so real) the other incident I saw a man outside our window, during these episodes my husband needs to calm me down as I try to "save him" then I realize it isn't real and I sleep further.
This only recently started to bother me and I decided to see a neurologist as well as a psychiatrist, all that they could tell me after tests was that I am not losing my mind but that they would want to give me a sleeping tablet to take. They are not sure what is causing this and I feel that a sleeping tablet isn't the answer. All I am seeking is an answer as to what is happening with me.
Please could someone help me to understand what is happening?
Of course, these are things I know for myself, work.
I have been besieged before, and caught unaware too. All I can offer is my experience. I wish for you the best... MissC