Now I'm just going to tell you a little bit about myself, and you can tell me if I'm crazy or just wanting to be special.
The youngest I've been when I saw what I believe is a ghost was about 9-10 years old. I was playing outside in the snow with a friend, and having a blast. Now for some reason, I looked up at my bedroom window and saw a girl. I'm an only child and my mother was the only one in the house. The girl had brown hair and she was wearing an old dress. Now I was excited and wanted to video tape my room for proof, but I didn't find anything.
As time went on I would have strange things happen to me that my family and friends wouldn't talk about. One time I heard whispering, and when I paid close attention to it, it went away. I've even heard a woman crying. Another time I've seen a girl in my house, was maybe 3 years after the first time I'd seen her. I had been with a friend and we were on my swing set, just playing and talking. Looking up I saw a girl, she was brunette and wore a white nightgown. She was in another one of my bedroom windows, staring at me.
I tried telling people what I saw but they debunked it, or made me feel like I was crazy. For a short while, I was paranoid, afraid to be in my own house.
I've been around people and they've never noticed what I've noticed. One day, while in the car with a friend and my mother, a man was in a field, just staring at me. It was 6-7 0'clock mind you, and pitch dark outside.
I've seen things at school too, not just in my home. Once, I saw what looked like a tall girl in sneakers out of the corner of my eye, but when I looked, she was gone.
When my grandmother died she died in our home. While studying, I felt my feet grow cold. I wasn't covered in a blanket, so the possibility that my foot came out and felt the cold is canceled out. Then out of the corner of my eyes I saw a shadow. There were no cats and no people walking around my house, I would have known.
I also seemed to have acquired the ability to just know things before they happen. I might sing a song that I haven't listened to and it'll play on the radio. I've had peoples names stuck in my head and then I'll meet someone who has that name. I've even had thoughts of people like family members, and then they'll call.
Please, could someone give me some insight on what I'm going through. It's freaking me out and I've even considered the possibility that I'm crazy or something. Thank you.
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I myself have been labeled with "psychotic"-tendencies (when I was 18 I had a psychosis) so that link spoke to me (not literally haha). I believe psychic and psychotic paradigms are very closely intertwined. What happens during a psychosis is that you lose touch with what is "real". This is not something that happens to a lot of people so you get labeled as "crazy" or a "danger" to society.
To me this is very untrue you are not a danger, until you start believing you are because people tell you so.
This does not mean that if you lose touch with what is "real" you should not seek help (like reaching out on this website). However if you do, make it very clear that you decide what will happen and that you want to know the options that are available. Show them that your cognitive functions are still solid because that's what these people like (brains over spirit).
However I would like to note that I myself spend the grand total of 8 years being treated. It solved... Wait for it... Nothing! It only taught me how to cope with the symptoms.
Meditation and spirituality have done more for me in 2 years than 8 years of therapy. Because I am starting to learn acceptance, not coping methods.
What I have learned is that the best approach humans have to describing what is "real" is inter-subjectivity. Which is to say, I see this, you see it as well, so it is real.
Yet the way you and I experience it is vastly different. Aside from that, our senses also differ wildly, say for instance someone who is colorblind. Colors are frequencies in the visible light spectrum. If you would look at a red door that person sees it in a totally different light (pun intended).
I myself have never seen a ghost or auras, however I have no doubt about people being able to see them. However there is no way for me to verify that because it is a purely subjective thing.
Hence the idea that people may call you "crazy" applies. It is not in their experience and so they can not verify it (inter-subjectivity). Let me say what no-one ever told me when I needed it.
You are not crazy. You are having/had an experience. Experiences are temporary, and they do not last forever. Unless you believe that they do.
My therapists always told me that I had a big chance of getting "healthy" again because I retained my ability to think clearly and most of all my humor.
When ever your abilities frighten you. Laugh it off. You are living a temporary existence, you might as well enjoy it. But most of all, be kind to yourself. Don't hate yourself because of the things you are experiencing.
They are a part of you and will shape you for the rest of your life.