What's Happening?

For the past year strange things have been happening. Now that I think about it, all of my life weird things have been happening. I think these things have been going on since I was young but I started becoming aware of them after my grandpa died. I became depressed and developed social anxiety in middle school. In freshman year it got worse and I became suicidal. After an attempt to take my life I went to an inpatient hospital and started recovering. That was about three years ago. I have made so much progress since then. I actually have a self esteem now but let's get into the weird stuff. I will start with the first "psychic experience". I remember it was a gloomy and rainy day. I looked out the back door and I saw a bunch of dead ants and some were alive. I don't know why but the ants interested me and I watched them for a good five minutes. Later that day we got a call that my great aunt had died. I thought it was a coincidence and didn't think much of it until this year. I started getting a weird feeling one day and the thought "something bad is going to happen. Something really bad" then the paris attacks happened. I went full on panic attack and didn't tell anybody because I didn't want them to think I was somehow in on it. I am still a kid and you can't exactly say "I had a psychic experience" and be let free lmao. Anyways I discovered I could see auras sometime last year. It started with just a white glow and then I started seeing purple around my hands. Sometimes I see blue around my hands. A couple months ago I heard knocking on my window. Then it happened a few more times. About three nights ago I heard ten knocks on the window farther away from me and then I heard my name. Last night I saw a golden shadow or golden figure type thing walking. I only saw it in the corner of my eye but I saw it twice. I had a similar experience a couple years ago but it was a dark shadowy figure outside on my driveway looking at my window (which was on the second floor of my house not counting the basement). These things have been going along for awhile. I keep hearing my name or hello and similar things. I also keep seeing synchronized numbers EVERYWHERE. Another thing I forgot to mention earlier is he showed up for my birth and I was the only grandkid he showed up for. He even slept in the car until he knew I was safe. My mom said he had a soft spot for me. She told me when I asked what he would think about my purple hair. She replied with "he would allow it because it's you". I can't help but think that has to mean something. She says I act just like him. I found out his life path number is 2 and mine is 11. Apparently 11 is supposed to be like a more spiritually developed version of the life path number 2. I have had some more psychic coincidences or experiences but I honestly can't keep track of them all. I have Deja Vu very often if that makes any difference. I have had so many weird things happen to me and I have been looking for answers for a long time. I don't know how to get them.