When I was around six, I moved houses. It was an old house. I immediately began seeing orb-like balls and silhouettes and it often made me too scared to sleep or have the light off. Everyone passed it off as typical childish behaviour and said that I just had a good imagination. Even at the time, I knew it was more than that, especially as it continued all throughout primary school.
This progressed until age 13, as I began seeing images more clearly and fearing bathrooms in particular. I believed something was hiding in the reflective surfaces, and would often actually see rather vivid images of them.
Very soon after moving there, I remember mucking around with an object I cannot remember on a table in my bedroom. My friend at the time and I were dressed in dark clothing, had the lights turned red and were saying a bunch of rambles. It was meant to be innocent but I suspect it might have sparked my experiences - maybe I annoyed or triggered something,
I then moved houses again, at 13, and the design of the house (large mirrors and uncovered windows) aided my fear while my experiences excelled fairly rapidly. There were, and still are, so many places for them to hide and emerge from. I would see full-fledged people in my room and down the hall, as well as often feel their touch.
I always thought it was spiritual but I went down the medical and therapy route at the local hospital just in case. No evidence of it being medical was found through numerous blood tests, medication trials and professionals - it was clear my mind was having affects as a result but no one could determine the cause). The specialist told me that I may well be correct, despite his training. After two years, I recently decided it was slowly improving and decided to try to cope without professional help. I believe the next events were unrelated to this.
Two weeks ago, I went to my long-term boyfriend's parents' house for the first time. His mum claims to have special abilities such as being able to see those who have passed and do tarot card readings, which she gets paid by strangers to run in her home. They also live in a district which had many land wars between the Europeans and native people, and she claims to have contact with some of those involved.
Ever since I've got back home, my experiences have started coming back but in new ways too. I can see faces in varying vividness usually when I close my eyes but also pretty much anywhere I'm alone. They are usually women who are in really bad states physically, but are not always.
I have little control over them beyond avoiding situations that make me scared, although that gives them more control In a way. They make me intensely scared on a daily basis and cause a lot of difficulty when trying to use the bathroom, shower and sleep. In five months I need to move out as I'll be 18 but I worry about how I'll cope in my boyfriend's house alone for large parts of fhe day until I find work.
I am not sure if confronting them is a good idea or how I would go about this is a way I'm capable of (due to fear). I also wonder if this could ever turn into something positive.
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When learnng it is knowledge that will eliminate fear.
I he a look at your situation.
And see you are an individual who is wide open. This equates to being born that way. You wrote you were afraid but I saw you shaking and crying.
A logical western mind and another of a different race almost like standing in two worlds past and present.
The blue orbs I found interesting as it expands.
I did not see or feel this as Malevolent. It is import to develop as uncontrolled panic can impinge on Mental health in your upcoming years. You are quite gifted.
I wish to encourage you to look at your Ancestral roots with your beliefs as this will help you to develop.