I am 16 and I actually don't believe in seeing things and stuff but then this feeling kept popping up. It started years ago. I have the feeling that something really bad is going to happen when I am about 18. Perhaps dying or loosing my eyesight. I have the feeling that the life I know now is going to be over. I never really thought about it until several people told me that I life live like I'm going to die soon. They tell me to slow down, that I have my whole life in front of me but every time I have feeling that's not true. I had several nightmares but I always encountered them as dreams. Do you think it could be a warning or am I just seeing things?
I never had any weird experiences. I am more a down to earth person but it freaks me out. And its not like I just started a few month ago to life my life so fast. I started from when I was really young. All my life actually. I am just 16 and I have done way more traveling than others. Every time I try to sit down, I can't sit still. I have the feeling I have to life live before its over. Everyone wants to do much but for me its more that I want to have it done before I turn 18. The bad feeling keeps popping up and I tried to avoid it and to slow down but then I feel really sick. It feels like I get fever and I am sweating. Its not like anything I have heard before. I once told my best friend about that feeling and she just said it is a bad feeling and nothing more. I believed her at that point but it really started to bother me now.
What do you think? Am I mentally sick or could it be something else?
But then it started to become a fear. I forced myself to do things to gain an experience and because they were necessary for something. The story goes that once I was so scared, that I actually heard voices that I was going to die (that was 3 years ago). I stopped and took some time off. But I realized it for what it was.
I have also experienced the fear of loosing eyes or eyesight (by fork or something sharp). No-one teaches us not to be afraid. And that is why many see this as anxiety or some other psychological illness. The more we fear, the more we experience it.
Being young is the most difficult time in my opinion, because you hear all those things out in the world and expect it to be true. And people don't tell you that there is another version of it. So you need to figure everything out by yourself and that is hard - to be able to trust yourself. So my advice: go out there, test your limits, live the life to the fullest:) They suggest this not literally but pretty much that do what you want to do (what your heart tells is the right thing to do for you at that moment of time).