My Spirit Guide Saved My Life

I am 17 years old and I have a 15 month old son. Last night I was so stressed out and just felt broken. The father of my son left me, I do it alone he hardly sees him and my world felt so lost and incomplete with out him. I was to the point where I felt I couldn't even take care of my pride and joy as well as someone else could. I wanted to end my life. I cried and I am not a religious person but I was mad, I asked god why he hasn't sent anyone to help me, to love me, to be there for me. Finally I fell asleep but I dreamt that there was a woman I had to kill. I don't know what she had done but I needed to kill her. I took a knife but she ended up stabbing me in the mid back on my right side. I knew I was going to die and I was okay and content with it. But all of a sudden a man appeared. In his late 20s or early thirties. He was dressed in ragged clothes but I was drawn to him. He to laid on the floor beside me to die with me. I felt like he was there to cross me over. As we lay on the floor he held my hand and I kissed him on the check. The emotion I feel for this man not a relationship love but something much more powerful then that. He told me something, make your way up to the counter and concentrate on all of the pain she has caused you, what she has done and see what happens. I knew this would never work but I went to the counter and I began to write her a note. Then a song started playing it had no words but was a very angry loud song. All of a sudden I was putting all of my hate and anger and pain into a ball of energy. I felt my body glow and fill with this energy then it got all cloudy and I couldn't see anything and then it was like something out of a movie. I exploded with negative energy. Killing the woman in the making of it. The spirit guide then told me I could do anything. I decided this woman was bad but I loved her like I loved anyone else. I did the same thing but with my positive energy and brought her back to life. Still dying I laid back on the floor. All of these people I've never seen before showed up, one saying he was my grandfather. They told me they knew me and they were stuck in-between heaven and earth. As I looked down at my wound I realized I was no longer bleeding and it was nearly just a scar now. As my wound healed my spirit guide drew closer to death. He then took my hand and led me down a beautiful path. I still thought I was going to die. We went through a door and there were children and elders I knew non of them. There was a man with a book, full of names. My spirit guide looked at me and pointed to a door where I could choose to cross over and die if id like. But he had given me much more then my life, he had given me strength, will to live, love, ambition, hope. I opened the door and let him go through instead. When I awoke I bawled not because I was sad but because I know that man saved my life. I woke up a new person and I hope to see him again tonight and thank him. I don't know his name but I know when I die he will be waiting to take my hand and lead me to the door together. I just feel this strong connection with him and its driving me insane. I have never felt so loving towards someone in my life. Is this a spirit guide? An angel? Who is this man...