I Had Voices Screaming In My Head

It was June, 1968. I was 17 years old, living in Nashville, TN.

I was never super political, but it was the 60's so I had some interests in national politics.

I was watching the very early returns coming in from the California Democrat primaries. Robert Kennedy was in the hunt.

Sometime, perhaps 2 hours before the event I had a nervous feeling come over me.

There is no word other than to say a very uncomfortable, nervous feeling. It went from a nervous feeling to the words in my brain--DON'T SHOOT HIM! DON'T SHOOT HIM! These words were constant and grew to a crescendo. I had this incredible feeling of being nervous and hearing these voices. I never put them together as what was about to happen--I just had this crazy nervous feeling and hearing this same voice in my mind. I did not put two and two together.

When the actual event happened--I passed out from the strain--maybe the shock of now knowing that I had somehow knew before the actual event.

I told my mother when I was able to--she passed it off that I just upset.

Here are things you know are real--and this is a glaring example of us as humans not really knowing the full spectrum of our world. I was tied in, somehow to a knowledge of an event before it happened and did not even recognize it at the time.

People will say this is crap--after all it involved the Kennedys.

Well, I swear on my Mother's and Father's grave this is the truth, so help me God. I think there is much more going on in this life than we know. We are not dogs that die in the street and that is the end. Dead dog in the road. We are perpetual souls with knowledge, worth, feelings and value--forever. This single event is still fresh in my mind after all these years--it was not my imagination. I was upset for months--not from the event itself--but from the knowing beforehand. And, being smart enough not to tell anybody but my Mom about it. People would have thought me to be a whacko.

Has anybody else had this "nervous" feeling--with a voice? I cannot be the only one out there. This is the only way I know how to explain this feeling--and it was stronger and stronger until the event itself.

Please let me know I am not the only person who has had this happen. I have told this only to a few people. People think you are some kind of nut if you make it too public. I am not a nut. Just a guy with a remarkable experience that has led me to have a different view on all of life, time and the human experience--for I know this happened.