New Intuitive And Medium Seeking Mentor

My name is Sonja and I have been able to see spirits since I was 5. I woke up one morning when we lived in South Texas and there was a little black lady sitting at the end of my bed. It scared me because I had never seen a black person before (we lived next to our neighbor's cotton fields. They had been in their family for generations. I believe now that she was one of my Spirit Guides.) When I screamed she disappeared. I was sick that morning and I think back to that encounter and it was as though she were watching over me. I still hope that she is one of my Guides because she looked very kind. After that encounter with the Spirit, I started sleep walking and having night terrors. When I was 9 years old my dad was offered a job in Chalmette, Louisiana which is close to New Orleans, Louisiana. I dreamed before we moved of the French Quarter, of cable cars and lots of people, the river and St. Louis Cathedral. All of which came true when my dad took us on a trip to the city of New Orleans right after we moved to Slidell, Louisiana. My visions stopped for a while when my mom had her health problems and I had to raise my sisters for 5 years. Then in high school in 1993 at the age of 17 I was coming home from work and rolled my car three times. Luckily a train came through because I was not wearing my seatbelt. When the train came through, I realized I was not wearing it and put it on. A mile later I rolled my car and was hanging upside down from it when the car came to a stop. A few months later I got married and started a Christian website. That is when paranormal things started happening to me. Let me just say that when there is light there is also darkness. The more I worked on my Christian website the more Satan tried to stop me. At 3:12 every morning it sounded like my house was being torn apart. My alarm clock would go off though I did not set it. Video cassettes would fall on the floor, my son's toys would all start going off on their own. It was noisy! I unplugged my alarm clock and it would still go off every morning. I still worked on my website, but all of this led to depression on my part. It wore me down and my husband and I got divorced. He kept custody of my son. I was a depressed mess. I moved to Biloxi, MS in an apartment. I tried to commit suicide. I eventually moved back with my parents. I met a man named Robert. He told me I needed help. I went to Gulf Coast Mental Health and got counseling and discovered that I was Schizoaffective Bipolar I disorder. Robert and I married and I was pregnant with our child. They messed up my medication and I took a shotgun into the bathroom. I did not know that it wasn't loaded. I got on the right medications and was stable and had our son. Robert and I did not work out. He moved to Texas with our son. I fell into a deep depression and was living with my parents again. I met Austin. We knew each other from high school. We fell in love. I got the help I needed to be on stable medications with him. I am actually on low doses and still stable. Austin is the one who noticed me being Intuitive. He encouraged me to pursue it. I was able to connect with three of my Spirit Guides. They are pure energy and I can see their auras. The dominate one is rose colored, one is yellow and the other is white. Everyday I go in and light incense and candles and turn on relaxing music and meditate. I tune in and ask my guides questions. My problem is, I don't have anyone that I can practice with. I can't tell my family that I am a Intuitive/Medium. They are very Christian oriented and would think that I am an evil person. They would not understand. I don't want to predict the future. I want to help people connect with their loved ones. I want to ease their grief and pain. I need a mentor. Someone I can trust that will be there when I have questions and I am banging my head against the wall because I just don't understand. So, I guess after this very long speech is... Does anybody know of anyone willing to be a mentor to an Intuitive/Medium wishing to be a Psychic Invesitgator? Thank you for your time and have a blessed day.