Why I Do Not Feel Human

Lately, I have been feeling strange at times. Every time, I walk down the street I notice I'm different. I observe people as a whole different race then I am. I watch their every movement, actions, even expressions and end up wondering about each one. Why don't I relate to them, what is it that i'm not doing properly or maybe I need to find a way to try to communicate better. It has always been a problem with since I was a little kid. I would always need to isolate myself to let my mind roam free. Away from this life, dream, reality I dare say. Then, I found myself sitting in a park one day. No shoes on and I could feel the earth's vibrations. It swiped through me and I never felt more accepted. I find myself talking to animals at times and they stop doing what they are doing and listen then speak back. Not realizing that people end up looking at me like i'm a crazy person. Some say your teen years are the hardest but now that i'm an adult, it is getting harder. I wake up at night and wonder what would it be like living on another planet. What are my other lives like? I know in another reality, i'm married and I have a little boy. Life there is simple and everyone works together to live a good life. It is still on earth but a different level. Then, I wake up here and wonder why was I place on this level? What purpose it is that I need to learn? What mission is it? Will I ever get the choice to decide which reality I want to be in forever? I look at the stars at night and talk to them awaiting a respond. Nothing but a twinkle or a chill. Who I was isn't a concern to me as much as what I need to do. What is it that this level is doing so wrong? It is something more than physical problems, as soon as this level realizes the problem I might be able to leave. This plays out in my mind constantly along with my love coming from the sky. Soon, is my current response. Soon I will be there. Then, there are the things I can do. Speaking to animals, feeling energies (I can tell just by looking at a person even a photo is that person is good or bad), I can hear voices, feel touches, sometimes see transparent beings moving, I can see sparks of colors at times, I tried my calling my energy in the pool once and the sun came out shining. I look at the sun and a cloud blocked it, I looked at the and thought move towards the clear sky. It did. I have no clue about that. I feel energy in the water and sometimes I can turn it warm but only small spots. I can feel the earth's pain when I walk without my shoes, read certain minds only when I put my forehead on someone else's. Keep bugs away if I concentrate by forming a circle around my feet. Then, the fairies, they use to come to my old place but i'm not sure about this place here. The pollution has affected the population here and also trust is an issue. I also remember when I as a teen, I use to suffer from horrible migraines. I was in the bathroom one day and looked at myself in the mirror. I wondered can I change my eye color? I managed orange - gold color but it changed back. My mom told me a month before I as born the northern lights came out like never before. They covered the sky like a huge blanket and it was like a rainbow. Up to now, she never saw any like those lights. The natives told my mom that those lights will bless your child, she will be very special. The thing is my mom never told the natives what sex her baby was going to be. After, I was born strange things happened. She would find me awake at night laughing, as I got older. She would find me in the living room laughing and playing. It was always at nights I would do this. She could never fully understand. These are all the reasons I know i'm not human. Then, I feel human at times but that is because I am in this body. It's purpose is to work this way. I can't stand hair, I can't stand monthly visits and sometimes even my own skin. It so weird. I hope to fully understand these feelings.