Shadows, Lights And More

I have seen shadows my whole life. Until today I did not know that there was a phenomenon known as "shadow people".

When I was a child I remember seeing one seem to want to crawl up the side of my bed at night. Always as I was starting to drift off to sleep. I would turn to my other side to protect myself.

Later in life I would see the shadows again, always out of the corner of my eye. As soon as I would turn to take a better look they would disappear. And it seems they appear at times of high stress.

Lately I have been seeing them again, but I am also seeing flashes of bright white light. Again just out of the corner of my eye. I believe that the shadow people are dark spirits and the white light represents "good" spirits.

I have also been dealing with problems with my marriage. I am unsure of whether or not to leave my husband. My sense is that his death is coming soon. If he is dying, and he is having health issues, then I love him enough to want him to leave this world with love and happiness in his heart. I figure I am going to need to heal regardless, and I can find more peace with him being happy if he is leaving this planet shortly.

A bird flew into the bedroom window yesterday. I have seen that happen twice before, once shortly before my mother in law passed and once before a friend of mine passed. I have also been able to sense people's death up to a year before it happens.

So my question is this. Am I seeing the shadow people again as a foretelling of my husband's upcoming death? Or am I seeing them as a result of the stress of the situation and the stress of the marriage itself? If he is going to pass away shortly, and my instincts say he is, do I trust my psychic experiences and wait it out? I know that sounds terrible, but I really need some help understanding what is going on. I am not afraid of the shadow people, as I sense they are simply dark spirits and if I pray they go away. They have never hurt me nor done any damage to my home. I really don't have anyone to talk to about this, as anyone else in my life would think I was loony.