I need some help, and haven't been able to find answers anywhere else, so here I am:)
My problem stems from (what I'm terming as) the residual emotions of places. It's so confusing to try to put into words, but in a nutshell; When I move into a new home I have personality changes. It seems that if an overly distraught person lived in a place that I later move in to their depression, paranoia or anxiety bleeds into me.
My father was in the military and my husband is as well, so I've lived in over 20 houses/apartments in my life. The house I'm currently in doesn't seem to have any negative energy, but the previous home we were in gave me so many problems we had to break the lease. (I later found out a woman committed suicide in that house years ago after being abused by her husband for many years)
I know some people might just think I'm nuts, but I assure you I am not clinically depressed. I've been to doctors and therapists to try to discover a more reasonable explanation to no avail. In the last ten years I've put the pieces together and realized that my mood changes only occur in places with bad histories. Sometimes I'll visit places and I immediately 'feel' bad vibes, unfortunately with homes that I've had problems with the bad feelings take at least a few weeks to show themselves (leaving me stuck in a bad situation for the duration of our stay).
Is this a known thing? And if it is, how do I stop it? My husband is retiring soon and we want to buy a home. I'm afraid we'll move somewhere that effects me, but since we'll be buying I'll have no escape.
Problem is, I don't feel comfortable letting people outside of my family know about my 'problem'. So, I'm going to have to come up with a real good (fake) reason to ask to stay overnight in a house. LOL. If that doesn't work, I will try to spend some time alone in the house before making a commitment. (Even if it is a few hours)
Thanks for the advice:)
[at] RevSilverson - Your childhood story is amazing to me. I have had similar things happen all my life and it's a relief to know someone else has been there.
And antiques? Nope that's a big no-no. LOL. I realized that years ago after buying some costume jewelry. Horrible experience: (
I try my best to drown out the negative energy that I feel, but spiritual stuff is, for the most part, a mystery to me. I'm going to have to do a lot of research on the subject in the next year before the 'big move'.
In my early 20's I had a friend that was really big into tarot and divining, but had to stop participating in that real quick. Every time I was around her while she was practicing I would become anxious to the point of fight or flight. After that I did my best to stay away from occult shops, mediums, and things of that nature. I suppose that just proves how important developing a shield for myself is!
Thanks so much! If you have any online resources that you feel could help me I am open to suggestions.