I feel very strangely detached from my body, and that it is not my own. It started to happen a year ago. When I look in the mirror I see a person and not me. I don't recognize it as myself, then I do a double take and remember. When I look at my hands typing I think they are someone else's hands typing. I'm also willing to do things to my body and not feel hurt. For example, if I flick my leg, I feel like it is not my own, and although I feel the physical pain, it still feels like it's okay to hurt it.
I'm not sure if this is related, but I'm also losing my memory. Suddenly I can't remember my past? It's getting worse, my memory of here is terrible. As in this world.
I am not present a lot lately. My vision will start to blur and I will sink into a state of nothing. I don't realize it until I snap out of it.
I feel like I almost want to escape, like I'm trying to get out of my body and go to another world or into another body and it's scaring me... Should I let it happen? Should I meditate and try? I don't want to die. I don't want to leave to another world. Could someone be trying to pull me into another world?
And I'm constantly worrying about possession for some reason. Also, no idea why or how this thought was put in my head, but I feel like a spirit or someone lives in my stomach. WEIRD. I know. I'm not crazy. It just feels like there is a lot of energy there like a lot like a soul is down there.
Is it possible that this body is not my own? Should I try attaching or detaching myself to my body? Is someone, aka the stomach energy, trying to take me away from my body?
I am worried.
Help?