I Can Feel Their Pain

So let me start from the beginning. I am a senior in high school, a cheerleader, and frankly, I have never been to a site like this before. I have always been 'normal'. But that changed when my Grandma Mary died. She was about 65 and the sweetest woman ever. She would encourage me to join her in her meditations or she would hand me strange books with unknown symbols. I would refuse because I didn't believe in any of her spiritual ramblings.

She died about three months ago. She went to Colorado and had a tragic accident. At her funeral, I was SO uncomfortable. There was this lady dressed all in white, staring at me the entire time. After the funeral we bumped into each other and I felt some sort of shock that made tingle from head to toe. When I look up, she's not even there! It's like she disappeared. Fast forward three days. I'm home alone and suddenly I feel the same tingling I felt at the funeral passing all over my body. I panic, because I can't feel my legs and can't stand up. Suddenly, I am looking at a vast emptiness and within that emptiness is my Grandma. She says something to me, but as soon as my eyes snap open, I forgot what she said but I know it was something terrifying. And even though I don't remember what she said, I remember her eyes. Her cold, empty lifeless eyes. I was still trembling, but I shrug it off, thinking it's something normal.

This goes on for about five more days and by this point I can barely eat, sleep or let alone cheer. They kicked me out of cheer leading! And not once can I remember what my Grandma told me! Also, I don't know why, but anytime I went even near meat, I would feel like vomiting! This is coming from an avid meat eater! But now I can't even glance at it! The only person who was vegetarian in my family was my Grandma. By that point, I actually thought my Grandma had possessed me!

But something changed. About a month after my Grandma's funeral, I was going to buy myself some new clothes and came upon the same woman dressed in white from the funeral. She nods at me and suddenly I see that vast space of emptiness once again but this time it's a complete stranger who talks to me! She says something and when my eyes open I've forgotten everything she'd said. I am trembling, and everyone is staring at me strangely and the white-dressed woman has disappeared. I go home, and about two times on the way home, that happens!

This has been happening for about two months now and I don't know what to think anymore. Now when I see these visions, I can actually FEEL what they're feeling. Some feel happy, some feel pain, and some feel indifference. But my Grandma is emotionless. It's so scary. All I see anymore are those soulless eyes and all I feel is their pain, but I am deaf with them. I do not know what they ask of me, because as soon as I open my eyes, I forget their message. Please help me! Am I psychic? What is happening to me? Is this normal?

Why can't I remember what they tell me?