I suppose I first started to realize I was "different" when I was 14. I began to notice that I was feeling emotions that most certainly were not my own, and that they were coming from other people. Nowadays I am so used to it, that it seems completely normal, but back then it was a little tough to get used to. Feeling other people's emotions was rather tough to sort out, and just how I really felt about it. It got harder as I came to know the reasons behind people's sadness, joy, anxiety, etc, and just what I would do with that information. At first I thought I was just going crazy, and at times I really hoped that that would be the case, particularly when it was a really bad experience like how I knew someone had just suffered the loss of a spouse, or when I knew a husband was cheating on his wife. Yet it was also good when I knew just how much a couple loved each other, or the celebration of a new child. I have never had to experience such things myself, but I know what such experiences feel like. As time passed, what I knew about people I kept finding out to actually be true, and this presented the problem of what I would do knowing I could know these things about people. Shouldn't I tell someone if I know their husband is cheating on them?
The problem would be that I would have a tough time convincing them, and I would have no real proof to back up my accusation. Also what would I do if I was wrong? As much as I might have wished that I would finally be wrong this time, or the next time, or whenever, I wasn't wrong, and my heart would ache for someone I couldn't help, but knew what they were going through. I have learned to just deal with it, and accept that there is not a whole lot I can do, which is made even harder when I have a vision of their future and find out how it will all work out, which is great if it is a good future, but sad when it isn't.
I spent a great deal of time since then to figure things out. I had never really believed in psychics or any of that pseudoscience stuff until stuff started happening to me, and it was a struggle to accept who and what I am, yet I can no longer deny it. I actually didn't tell anyone for years about my gift as I felt that most of the people in my life I either couldn't trust, or wouldn't accept it. Even now, there are only a few people who know about it.
I figured out eventually that it wasn't just a passive thing, and that I could use it whenever I wanted or that I didn't actually have to be near the person to read them. I found that I could read anyone I wanted and not only could I know their emotions, but find out just about everything I wanted to know about them. How they felt about certain individuals, what their hopes and dreams were, how their parents treated them, even their deepest darkest secrets, etc. Pretty much the sky is the limit, and I can find out from any person anywhere, anyplace, anytime. There are very very few people I cannot read and that is because they have abliities of their own and know how to shield themselves. However, whenever I am around such individuals I have the ability to see and experience what they can, such as if the individual can see spirits, I can too, even though I don't normally possess such a power.
The powers that remain my own, however, give me enough to deal with anyway. I seem to have a lot of them, and most of them are pretty strong, which caused me to doubt for some time that what I was experiencing was real, after all, no one should be able to do all these things right?
I also have the ability to receive perfect answers to questions, and whenever I have a question, I can just start writing and the words come to me. When it applies to people that I have read, I know exactly how to help them, even though I usually can't without telling them about my abilities. The few people that do know about me I'm always able to help as I know what they are going through before they can even tell me, and I know how to help them through it.
Bottom line: I just want to help people. I'm not in it for the money or for fame, but to be able to continue making a difference in people's lives.
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