I would like to say off the bat that I am no stranger to paranormal studies. I have literally been involved with the paranormal my whole life. I was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck, which has been speculated to either cause or be a sign of a child being more sensitive to such things. As a child I saw ghosts in my house, and my mother, a historian, looked up the names I gave her and they were people who died in or around the house (which is 300+ years old).
But more to the point, I believe I may be somewhat an Empath, but if I am I am not a very strong one. People do tend to open up to me, even strangers. I am not very good at consoling others though, but even if I do terribly, I get told that just being around me is healing for others.
I have long been at odds with how terrible our world is. I spend a lot of time wishing I could just take on the worlds problems for them, if it would make everyone happy and well. However, the world often feels foreign to me, and I have great trouble understanding how anyone could harm another, even for personal gain. Injustice angers me above all other things. I can never wrong anyone because just imagining how it'd make them feel makes me feel terrible and depressed.
Lately I have felt run down though, many people in my life are going through rough times and they always open up to me about everything, and after I just feel drained. I spend most of my time alone because I hate being in crowds. I'm becoming very withdrawn and I don't enjoy it.
My family may have effects on me if I am an empath. My sister has migraines, my mother has bad joints and my father various heart issues. Lately I get random chest pains, my knees are bad and I get headaches. They are brief though so I'm not sure what to do.
Am I an Empath or am I just another person trying to feel special? Any speculation is welcomed, I'm no stranger to harsh words.
Joan Monet goldenjmm [at] aol.com