I came across this forum while searching for some insight or help with what's been happening to me for many years. I would like to start off by saying I am totally sane and have no chemical imbalances or mental illnesses of any kind. I will abbreviate this story the best I can in order to cover the bulk of it.
As a young child on occasion (not incredibly often) I would audibly hear a man's voice yelling something at me, he seemed either desperate or angry it was almost as if when the voice happened everything around me would speed up, i.e. sounds movements etc. And after the voice had stopped I would frantically try to recall what it was the man was saying to me, and never could it was as if it was just on the tip of my tongue but could never remember it.
As frightening as these rare occurrences were I finally chose to tell my parents after one time that was more intense and scared me quite badly, so as suspected when I told my parents they laughed it off probably thinking it was some ploy for attention.
It did not happen again until one day while laying in bed to take a nap at the age of 17, and it was just as before things sped up around me and he was yelling something in a desperate tone that I was unable to remember after it stopped. It has never happened to me again and honestly I hope it never does! But following that final encounter with this voice I began having what I like to refer to as invasive thoughts, at random and not too often I will experience a vision generally not a pleasant one but a very vivid image that I have no clue where it is coming from as it has nothing at all to do with what I will be thinking of at the time it occurs.
These are not images that I see with my eyes like you would something that is physically in front of you, these are seen in my mind however are very vivid and happen with no prior warnings of any kind and escape me just as fast as they appear to me.
I have searched everywhere for some kind of insight into what these things might be, hence me saying I am mentally fit and sound, being concerned about what these occurrences could be I had myself checked out for any type of mental illness and have also been tested for tumors or any brain wave abnormality that could induce such things, and came out with a clean bill of mental health.
The images that I get make no sense to me and seem frightening to me and I am unable to make any sense of them whatsoever. Speaking with my close friend on the phone this morning she confided in me that she has had almost identical experiences with the exception of the voice I would hear as a child. It was so relieving to me for her to share this experience she has because I generally keep all of this to myself for fear people will think I am insane.
So now knowing there is someone else who is mentally sound like myself who shares similar experiences I do feel a bit better but still wonder what is this that happens to me and why? There may be no answer but I hope someone will read my story and possibly be able to point me in some direction where I may be able to find out more about what this may or may not be.
Something else that may or may not have anything to do with this is the fact that I am extremely empathic to the point I cannot and have not been able to watch the news on Tv for some years due to the tragic stories they broadcast, while I am sure they bother everyone to some degree they seem to linger with me and it is as if I truly feel the pain of the victim and it interferes with my emotions and at times can cause very deep feelings of sadness or pain, therefore I just do not watch news or read papers.
So if anyone out there can give me some insight on what is going on or what I can do it would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read my story.
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Yours is kind of like mine too man. I get them like that too and it would always be on the tip of my tongue... Here's the thing though man. I used to always deny it and push it away because I never fully believed in any of this sort of stuff. I only let it get to me if I was really scared or if it was really entertaining. The thing is though that once I got into university it became pretty much undeniable. It's been two years since then and a lot of those things that used to be on the tip of my tongue I can now recall. Once I knew those things were real my awareness was peaked and I remember just the random stuff too, and not just the stuff that scared me or entertained me. Basically I will talk to people all the time now and I feel as though I allready had that exact conversation. Other times I will get a strange sense about something so I will write it down and all too often it eventually unfolds.
Hard to deal with that type of shiat when all I really want to do a lot of the time is get my HW done and keep up my gpa but whatever because I also kind of like it. It's not all bad and your probably only tuning into the bad stuff because it's the easiest not to push away. I don't know for sure though because I had made attempts in the past to embrace the fact that I got a few psychic and telepathic abilities but never really could until I hit university. I suppose it was my time to understand.
So to answer your question. Whoever is talking to you may or may not be telepathic. So if your trying to talk back with him I'm guessing you'll probably remember the conversations you either did or didn't have later on down the road when one of two things happen (well that's how it usually goes for me).
1) you can pick him out from others just by getting a feel for it.
2) you can pick him out from others because you meet this person later on in your life and he acctually has one of those conversations with you that you have dreamt, and since you've forgotten it you shouldn't be suprised if it comes back with a rush of emotions which will probably make it very, very hard to deny.
As for the thing about the news and stuff well that type of stuff doesn't bother me. If something bad happens and I see it on the news and I know FOR A FACT that I have percieved that event happening then it bothers me a bit, but sometimes man it's like, what can you do? And usually if I have percieved that event, well in that case I seem to spend more time wondering how in the hell is it possible I was able to see that stuff rather then feeling sorry all the time. I used to feel sorry and bad all the time but now it's just that I'm so damn wrapped up in how is this stuff possible? And what's going to happen next? That I kind of forget that other part a little bit.