I've never felt human, never been able to connect on the human level, whereas most people have felt psychic powers occasionally, I've felt like a human occasionally. I have been told since I was basically born that I was meant for something amazing, but I can't find it. I see spirits as normal everyday people, they're everywhere. I feel I have this huge destiny ahead of me but I'm missing out in the here and now.
I've been cast out from my entire family because they feel my intensity and don't like it. My father is an ancient, I see it in his face every time I look at him, and my mother has psychic powers, but the two have basically no history nor guidance for me. I've done so much research on, how I feel and how to hone or control my abilities, but most people are genuinely fake. I think I might be a crystal child, mainly for the way I multiply energy around me, even the Iphone ghost app picks me up... But I have no hard evidence so I just feel crazy.
I have all these psychic abilities, reading minds, seeing spirits, time travel, visions, even speaking in people's minds or having conversations with their subconsious only to prove the thoughts I hear as facts. Just about everything psychic I feel, and I bring it out in people. Just simply being around me people notice things differently, some as far as to say they feel super stoned (high) around me. Only when I feel powerful though.
My friend and I walked into his pasted before, watching the 3rd dimension change around me, quite literally watching plants reverse grow. I have all these powers but at the same time, I have all these blocks. I can't astral project, or control my lucid dreams. I only play my role in the dream and watch from a 3rd consciousness. I often fight demons for fun while walking alone or play with astral energy out of boredom. People actually see it and even feel it when I play with energy and it often frightens them, so I try not to out of respect. I feel as if I've awakened, but everyone says they find their enlightened path once awakened, am I missing something? Where do I go from here?
As for the one who posted his story, great going. Keep at it, for you are not alone and yes, it is also normal to feel that way. I do sense that you are a kind of Lightworker. And deciding to follow that certain path is indeed a wise decision but the same time risky. There would be a time wherein you'd undergo the pains of Spiritual Awakening, Spiritual Fluctuations and a lot more confusion with the psychic side of you but I would like you to still continue on with walking down the path. Others may or may not believe you, but it's YOUR trust and belief in yourself that matters the most.
And yes, you are here for a reason:to enlighten and serve mankind---to serve the light. All of us are:sadly,some are blinded by reality.Nevertheless,you one of the lucky people to awaken as a Lightworker and take part in the movement to make the world a better place.
In what way, I do know it's completely up to you.:)
Hope to hear more from you. Whatever happens,don't give up,okay?Because giving up is the one thing that is more fearful than death.❤