Exploring the Dark Side of the Human Mind

I have to say before I get started, that this is the first time I have ever told any of my 'experiences' on-line, but here I go. I have always felt like I have had some type of psychic abilities, I wouldn't say that I was a medium, or a psychic, but maybe sensitive would be the right word. I see orbs, I see plasma, I have been awakened in the early morning hours to hear someone calling my name, or last Saturday morning I heard this long, moaning sound.

I have known things, for example, I live in Oklahoma, and there are 39 federally recognized tribes in our state. One evening I was supposed to attend a healing at a smoke lodge ceremony, but I felt for some reason that I shouldn't go, in fact, I was told, that I shouldn't go, and if I did, I would be met at the entrance of the lodge, and told I couldn't enter. So, needless to say, this time, I listened to my intuition. The next day, I spoke with a lady from the Cheyenne-Arapaho tribe, about why I didn't attend, and she said, Wendy, I have to tell you something, I was waiting at the entrance of the lodge, and I wouldn't have let you come in. I was shocked, I knew my frame of mind was such that I shouldn't have participated, but to have this imprinted in my thoughts, and then verified the next day was freaky.

About the hanging death row inmate. I work in the criminal justice field, and have always been fascinated by death row and death row inmates. The inmates, their crimes, their victims' lives, etc. This particular experience happened about 8 months ago. During lunchtime, I would often spend my breaks pouring through death row inmates' (from different states) criminal history, nature of their offense, etc. I would look at their pictures, and read about their execution dates. While doing this search, I found a web site for inmates that had already been executed, and for about two weeks was able to tap into their horrific minds, somehow. I had two co-workers tell me, (they walked in while I was reading about this stuff) that I should leave it alone. But I didn't listen, in fact, I was compelled to continue this research.

Until one night, while I was sleeping, my blanket and comforter were violently ripped off of me. Still half asleep, I immediately turned over to see who it was. I thought maybe it was my 13 year old son, but it wasn't, there was a huge, black cloaked skeleton hanging right above me. I started screaming, and punching it, over and over, until I managed to see a space between me and it, and I ran under it and ran out the door. My son came running out of his bedroom and caught me as I was trying to get out the front door. I was screaming and my heart felt like it was beating out of my chest. It was the most terrifying experience I have ever had. I would not go back into that room for two days.

I called a friend of mine who does Tarot cards and she made me come over to her house immediately. I left work early and went to her house. She made me stay outside while she smoked the house and then smoked me. She told me to ask two questions, not to her, but to God. Of course the first question was what was the experience I just had, and why. It wasn't too long before it was impressed on my mind that I had just opened the door to these executed offenders' minds and that I needed to go home, clean my house, get my bible and a cross and pray over the house and to command this entity to return to the light.

I also told it that even though it had done bad things on earth, it could turn around and do good things on the other side. That seemed to have worked because I haven't had that type of experience ever again. But I still hear voices, I still feel energy. I know a lot of this goes back to when I lived in Alaska and began experimenting with the Ouija board and automatic writing. After opening those doors, my husband, mother and I had to have our house prayed over and we burnt a lot of stuff. After that, my husband, (now my ex-husband) went into the ministry. I was a pastor's wife for seven years and have lots of spiritual experiences to tell about our time in the ministry. I've seen both sides of the spiritual realm.

I am still very sensitive to energy, and to good/evil. I try to guard my thoughts and stay away from harmful people. And I definitely stay off of death row inmates' websites. But anyway that's just one of my most scariest experiences.