My Lost Psychic Abilities

My name is Alfie. I'm 15.

When I was not that young, I created an imaginary cult and became a member. It did not actually exist.

In the cult I was given, (or gave myself) a number to identify myself. That number, 776, still feels very personal and significant to me. Is this madness? That is question one.

I used to be able to see what I called 'people's spirit'. Mine was mainly blue (but some silver), until I meditated in the woods one day, and it became a yellow green colour. I could extend it out my finger tips, quite far at times. The blue never left, but it became a mere outline.

I lost this ability when I ditched the cult, but on a family holiday I met a woman called Cindy. We were talking about spirituality, and enlightenment came up. She asked me if I believed in it, and I replied 'yes'. She told me she had been enlightened. She also told me she could see auras. She described mine, and the description was exactly the 'spirit' I saw around me in the cult.

I also used to be able to predict coin tosses (more than 18 times in a row), guess the colour in certain people's heads 100 percent of the time, and sometimes shapes and animals.

My ability of prediction left when I started dating a girl. I met her before she met me, in a vision, or something. I'd never experienced anything like it. She told me we could never be together. But we were for 11 months.

We've now split up, I miss her so much. She may have been the love of my life.

Was I psychic? Will it return? Thanks