I'm putting this out there as a plea for all empath's. For those of us who feel emotions we often lose ourselves and are unable to focus again. Just because we feel the emotions of the world doesn't mean we have to let them control us. Now for the story
Ever since I've been a kid I've felt a connection with the elements. Fire, Water, Earth and above all Wind. I know there are dozens of stories of people controlling the elements... And mine is kind of one of them.
I spend an insane amount of time out in the woods, forest, ocean. Sun shine, rain or drought I'll be there. During these times I may lose myself in thought and I began to reach out and feel the way life flows through the world.
Whenever I'm tired or in a highly emotional it's like everything reaches out to me at once and tries to help me. One day I was distraught over a friend who really needed my help. When I realized that there was nothing that I could help her it was like the wall I'd built around myself had crumbled every ounce of control I had vanished at once.
Suddenly I felt as if I didn't go help her at once something terrible would happen, something in which there was no going back. She suddenly hung up on me crying she was so depressed that I felt it like a blow to every nerve in my body. I had loved this girl, she was my ex, still do even after everything. But this wasn't about two teen problems this was about me finally allowing the last barrier the last strong hold I held to come down.
I climbed out onto my roof and jumped down landing on the grass. The second I touched the ground I felt strength flood through my body I felt the wind reach out to me. Then it was like I felt the world all at once. I felt the happiness of a new couple, the loss of life from a dear friend and the depression of my friend.
Even though I had never been to her place I somehow knew where she lived. I felt a tugging deep in my stomach. Like something wanted to get out. It had been something that I had suppressed ever since I had been a child. Some deep primal force that I was terrified to let the world see. In those moments though I let it out. And it felt right, I had control of myself though ever last sense was working in over time. I reigned back on all other emotions and only searched for her and when I found it I layed against a tree, put my hand on the bark and felt connected to everything. In that state I managed to get control and put up my barriers again.
I felt drained but for the first time in a long time I finally felt like me, and it was good.
I know it was a bit much but I swear it's all true and I could use some help on what the heck happened and what I can try to do to expand my abilities or control them...please
Suddenly I felt as if I didn't go help her at once something terrible would happen, something in which there was no going back. She suddenly hung up on me crying she was so depressed that I felt it like a blow to every nerve in my body. I had loved this girl, she was my ex, still do even after everything. But this wasn't about two teen problems this was about me finally allowing the last barrier the last strong hold I held to come down.
I climbed out onto my roof and jumped down landing on the grass. The second I touched the ground I felt strength flood through my body I felt the wind reach out to me. Then it was like I felt the world all at once. I felt the happiness of a new couple, the loss of life from a dear friend and the depression of my friend.
Even though I had never been to her place I somehow knew where she lived. I felt a tugging deep in my stomach. Like something wanted to get out. It had been something that I had suppressed ever since I had been a child. Some deep primal force that I was terrified to let the world see. In those moments though I let it out. And it felt right, I had control of myself though ever last sense was working in over time. I reigned back on all other emotions and only searched for her and when I found it I layed against a tree, put my hand on the bark and felt connected to everything. In that state I managed to get control and put up my barriers again.
I felt drained but for the first time in a long time I finally felt like me, and it was good.
I know it was a bit much but I swear it's all true and I could use some help on what the heck happened and what I can try to do to expand my abilities or control them...please
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It sure hits you like a brick wall.
Especially when your right next to it. Or even in the same spot as it. Those who have this ability can understand.
Im staring to get the livings emotions. It makes it hard to concentrate, and you get confused with how you feel.
Especially at lunch. I get a rush of emotions. And after a while of this confusion I get a headache starting in the middle of my head and sometimes it works it's way to my forehead where my third eye should be.
Am I the only one? Or is this common.
Am I an empathic medium? Sorry if the comment is to long:/