My Life as a Psychic

I'm Lori and I'm sixteen years old. I have always been considered a little strange you could say. People think I'm weird because I can figure so much out about them without them even telling me. As I'm getting older it seems that, whatever you want to call it, my special ability as my family calls it, is getting stronger.

My emotions are always changing and I can feel other people's pain, happiness or whatever their feeling. My mom has told me that she is going to send me to a shrink, but I don't think it would help. Some of the things I have experienced, I don't even want to think about. This experience has even lead me away from some churches because I feel some terrible things when I walk into some. Don't think that I'm evil or anything because I do believe in god and that he gave this power to me so I can help people. I'm just saying some of the people that say there all righteous aren't what they seem.

It is often scary to be able to read people so well and hear some of what they're thinking because most of the time, they're not thinking on a good level. I have even heard dead people, but what I don't understand is that all I hear is whispers and feel their emotions and don't really know what they want. This ability has gotten so bad that I can't even concentrate in school because I hear continuous talking and it's NOT my thoughts.

I sometimes dream of a past that isn't even mine, but it's always the same dream. It's about an old woman and I'm just a child and she has many herbs and flowers hanging on her porch and lots of sun flowers everywhere. As I'm laying in the flowers, she comes and gets me and tells me to run. Suddenly I'm in a crowd full of people and I look up and she is standing on a platform with a rope around her neck and she starts to sing an old, old song and it calms me and I seem to know she's going to be ok, as I hear the wood beneath her feet fall along with her body.

My mother said that the same kind of thing has affected many of my family members to the point that they went crazy. I also sometimes see spirits and most of them don't even realize I'm there I really don't understand.

Please if someone can tell me what this is or can help me get control over this I would appreciate it very much. I don't want to be remembered in my family as the other one who went nuts so I came here for help because it was the one place I could come, so please help me.