Sometimes I think I'm crazy and nothing is really happening but other times I just can't ignore the mental and physical happenings. Or maybe it's an overactive imagination.
Alright, so these past few months have been hard on me. I have been getting to bed at decent times but when it comes to the sleep I have been dreaming constantly. I can take a five minute nap and have an extremely long, full dream. Now, you think this would pose no problem except when I go to wake up in the morning, I can't. Sometimes it's so hard to shake me from my dream that my mother is screaming and about to give up. I can hear her, but I can't stop.
The dreams aren't even normal. Sometimes they will be about what happened the day before but lately, they come true. Even simple, pointlessly tiny things come true. Like dropping something on the floor. Or as complex as a car crash on the news.
Besides the sleep, something is happening where my eyes go completely bloodshot, I turn pale and than sun-burnt red, it gets hard to breath, I feel like I'm on fire, and than after a minute of this I go delusional and can't even remember what happens. My best friend and my dad witnessed my first act of this and rushed me to the emergency room. After hours of testing, (blood tests, chest exams for breathing, ect.) they said they found nothing. But it stayed this way for a few days and I don't remember.
For some reason, these "random acts" keep happening. So, it's not a viral disease if it's lasted months.
Changing the view here, sometimes I feel watched...? Almost like I'm not alone. Sometimes it gives me goose bumps and I see shadows move and flash. It makes my hair stand on end and I feel chilled. It is happening more recently and I've just happen to finally wonder what it is. Now that I think of it, this happened when I was little too. I am 14 now.
So, guys I came on here for help. I never asked for this, what ever it is. I was going to post a few days ago when I first found this site. But while I was reading on here, I felt that chill. I turned down the music and sat very still. I let my goosebumps rise and I closed all the basement doors. It got so bad that I started shaking from the random cold spell and the rain outside turned to sudden sleet. So, I shut down my laptop and turned the tv off for some silence. I sat on my bed in the basement and tried to listen. The cold started to slowly fade but I still felt like I wasn't alone. When I turned off the lights I felt like I was so close to someone else I could just reach out into the dark and feel someone. Sleep came fast for some reason and the dreaming swept me away.
I need help. If someone has seriously been through this and they can help I need to know now. My mom was going to take me to my family doctor but I am afraid he will find nothing, or call me crazy. I mean, would a doctor confess to the abnormal reality? I want to know about my dreams and these "random acts", and feeling followed on occasion. Please, help me.
I intend to post more about the past life regression, if anyone needs help with that also feel free to email me at youridiculous [at] hotmail.com