My story happened last Christmas, but still, I could not forget this unusual event: It was morning and I just woke up, I looked to my right and saw my sister already awake and using her computer. So, I sat beside her and passively (and relaxingly, because I was thinking that I don't have any classes anyway) watched her play games. Afterward, our mom walked in our room (because my sister and I share a room) and offered us a ham sandwich. I was so excited because it was our first time to have a ham on Christmas.
In presenting the ham, mom separated the ham to the bread, I don't know why. So I picked the ham first with my bare hands. Then suddenly, when I touched the ham, I was in a butcher house. I was a female pig, hanging upside down. This butcher was hitting me real bad and I felt pain as if I was the pig. I know through the animal's mind that I would be butchered, so I was, or rather, she was really afraid. I looked somewhere and I saw in my mind's eye small pigs (baby pigs?) and heard in the pig's mind something like "What about my children?" and she was so sad and afraid that I think she was crying. Then came the feeling of vivid strong emotions of pain, hopelessness and fear that I almost felt like I was the animal. It lasted like that for many minutes until all ended in a blink of an eye.
When the "movie" ended, when I came back to reality, It was so still and normal, but my emotions was still there but blurred a little. The sounds also disappeared, but first left an echo, then it was completely gone. Actually, the feeling of it was so weird because suddenly it seems so...normal. The emotions are gone, the noise and the feeling. When I asked my sister how long I've been there holding the food, she replied "just a little while." and I was so shocked and told her the story, but she ignored me. When I asked my grandmother, who bought the food, what animal was the ham, she said "It was a pig."
That's when I affirmed that my experience was unusual and very real. I searched in the internet what kind of phenomena was that: when you touched a thing then you would know, feel, hear it's history, etc. But I failed. I looked at the ham before doing something to it and was having trouble whether to eat it or not. I ate it nevertheless, it was my first ham after all.
What do you think of this experience? I wish this would happen again but it only happened once. I don't even know what is this called. Thanks.
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It is true that I don't know ham always comes from pigs. All I know is that it comes from a cow. Actually, when my grandmother told me that it was from a pig I doubted myself. But I cannot just brush it off my mind! It was soo real. Thanks again, for long I really wanted to stop eating meat because of this experience and other experiences I don't want to mention because they were "ugh" and "eww". But I cannot do it since my WHOLE family eats meat, and cook meals with meat, so I cannot protest unless I want to starve to death.
I do hope that everyone would learn how to connect to everything around them. Because I think people these days are so hurt with life that they don't want to care anymore. Only to themselves and to those few people they care about.